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Searching4Truth · Apr 11, 2014

Hate my job, hate my life, hate being looked at all weird-like by certain people, hate waking in the mornings. *sigh*

If there is a God, I hope He, She, or It does the job soon. I'm getting tired of living again.

PopClick · Apr 11, 2014

Searching4Truth said:

~Looks at searching4truth all weird~

No, really. I know who I'm going to be praying for tonight. If there's anything good, anything noble, trustworthy, excellent... please, think about these things? Anyway, I wish I could make everything better, but sometimes I just can't.

IloveyouGod · Apr 11, 2014

Fenner, money is not everything. ONE weekend is not gonna make you poor. I'm sure you guys will have food on your table if he doesn't work this weekend. So don't feel bad at all. You do love him n' you want him to be with you and to have some rest. And he loves you too and wants to work more and more for more money. God bless your family Fenner.

Please pray for me...

Fenner said:

I feel bad, I think I put extra pressure on my Husband today. He usually works 6 days a week. His day off Sunday is usually spent at church, and doing what ever else we couldn't do that day. It's always rushed and a little stressful. He had today off, I had no idea until this morning, they usually call him in on his day off. He wants the OT. I understand the OT is nice, but I was so happy they didn't call him this morning. Our Daughter has been ill, so having him home to drive my son to school was great. My Daughter was feeling better so we went to the store too.

Well tomorrow we are supposed to go visit friends in Ohio, he said they might want him to work, I said, please don't go, you haven't had a weekend off in a year, please spend it with us. He asked me, well don't you think the extra cash is nice? Of course I do, but I told him, yes, but just one weekend would be great. He felt bad and I said, I didn't mean to make you feel bad I know you work hard for us. He said he was fine and would take the day off, but I know he wants to work for the extra cash.

Is it selfish that I don't care? I want him to come with us to Ohio, relax and have fun with our friends. When we go out we have a sitter for a couple of hours rush to dinner or a movie and that's it. A whole day would be so nice. I know he know's this and is happy but I feel kind of bad asking him not to make extra money, we could use it, but I just want this weekend. I want him to be with us.

I think he will have a nice time and not even think about work. He likes his job and doesn't over talk about it, but like any job it has it's stressful times too.

Ugh sometimes it stinks to be a grown up.

wisebeardman · Apr 11, 2014

so yesterday someone dragged me out of the house with something I didn't want to do... as payback I put a white towel on my head with a black headband rolled the window of the car down and when ever I seen people I screamed out in a arab accent ALLAHU AKBAR... about 2 miles later stopped by the cops and I was back home about 10 mins after I left.

Pipp · Apr 11, 2014

This is genius ... don't know why I didn't think of it ....

[video=youtube_share;hsHgUZoWfRo]http://youtu.be/hsHgUZoWfRo[/video]

lil_christian · Apr 11, 2014

Pipp said:

Ooooh this is PERFECT. Next year....next year.

Pipp · Apr 11, 2014

lil_christian said:

most definitely

zeroturbulence · Apr 11, 2014

Fenner said:

I feel bad, I think I put extra pressure on my Husband today. He usually works 6 days a week. His day off Sunday is usually spent at church, and doing what ever else we couldn't do that day. It's always rushed and a little stressful. He had today off, I had no idea until this morning, they usually call him in on his day off. He wants the OT. I understand the OT is nice, but I was so happy they didn't call him this morning. Our Daughter has been ill, so having him home to drive my son to school was great. My Daughter was feeling better so we went to the store too.

Well tomorrow we are supposed to go visit friends in Ohio, he said they might want him to work, I said, please don't go, you haven't had a weekend off in a year, please spend it with us. He asked me, well don't you think the extra cash is nice? Of course I do, but I told him, yes, but just one weekend would be great. He felt bad and I said, I didn't mean to make you feel bad I know you work hard for us. He said he was fine and would take the day off, but I know he wants to work for the extra cash.

Is it selfish that I don't care? I want him to come with us to Ohio, relax and have fun with our friends. When we go out we have a sitter for a couple of hours rush to dinner or a movie and that's it. A whole day would be so nice. I know he know's this and is happy but I feel kind of bad asking him not to make extra money, we could use it, but I just want this weekend. I want him to be with us.

I think he will have a nice time and not even think about work. He likes his job and doesn't over talk about it, but like any job it has it's stressful times too.

Ugh sometimes it stinks to be a grown up.

I think your hubby needs to learn a new word: Workaholic

Unfortunately there is no app for that... yet.

I'm sorry you have to deal with that, Jennifer.

ww_21 · Apr 11, 2014

**trying to stay awake tonight to meet you guys on chat**

Fenner · Apr 11, 2014

IloveyouGod said:

Fenner, money is not everything. ONE weekend is not gonna make you poor. I'm sure you guys will have food on your table if he doesn't work this weekend. So don't feel bad at all. You do love him n' you want him to be with you and to have some rest. And he loves you too and wants to work more and more for more money. God bless your family Fenner.

Please pray for me...

Praying for you as always. Hope you are well.

Fenner · Apr 12, 2014

zeroturbulence said:

He's really a good guy Zero, no need to be sorry. We had a period of time when we were broke, I think we both keep that in our heads how hard life was. I mean it's not all roses and sunshine all the time now, but it certainly isn't as hard as it used to be. He is usually home by 5:30 at night at we talk then. It's just he works everyday. He works for the Post Office and they demand a lot of their employees. He likes working for them, but it can be tough.

Searching4Truth · Apr 12, 2014

I just realized that I have no real friends to talk to. Not face to face like I need it. No real genuine friendship. Ain't that sad? I guess I'll go complain to Jesus and hope that He is real and actually listening.

Grace-Like-Rain · Apr 12, 2014

Searching4Truth said:

I'm sorry you're having a hard time, Truth. Are you naturally introverted, or do you just lack opportunity to form relationships with others? Almost all of my friends are married. Married people actually do make great friends.

Hang in there.

Loneliness. I think that Jesus knows even more than we do about what that feels like. He was surrounded by disciples while on earth, but none of them really had a clue what was going on. They understood almost nothing that was happening. He really faced it all alone. Even God departed from Him during His final moments. We worship a God who knows what we struggle with first-hand. I hope He comforts you tonight.

zeroturbulence · Apr 12, 2014

Searching4Truth said:

I have the same problem, and Jesus or God is who I talk to. They're the best ones to talk to anyway.

Primrose · Apr 12, 2014

Searching4Truth said:

Hey buddy! Lets be friends!!

iTOREtheSKY · Apr 12, 2014

Searching4Truth said:

I felt this way after & during my 9 yr marriage. Most of my friends,I'd lost touch with or barely spoke to because everyone gets busier as they get older with families & jobs,etc. For me,much had to do with distance. Living in Maine,I was very isolated. I never made any friends there in the entire time I lived there. Pretty sad,but true. So just know,yer' not alone. This happens to other people too. I still feel like all I do is complain to Jesus,even when I'm not. I have to remind myself that He wants me to talk to Him,no matter what it's about.

Fenner · Apr 12, 2014

Friends of mine are moving, they have a pool that they don't want to take and the person who bought the house doesn't want it. We're taking it. I am gleefully happy !

homwardbound · Apr 12, 2014

Searching4Truth said:

Trust this Father already knows your true needs over what you think you need, but go right ahead and get what you desire to see truth over error, it is the way of flesh needs over Spiritual needs
Trusting you will see truth through error(s) we all make and Father is Faithful to always cause us to stand
Thank you for your honesty

wisebeardman · Apr 12, 2014

well. its been warm a few days and well all me bees be dead. they didn't survive the winter.

also it looks like in 2015 if all goes well I will be doing something I didnt really want to do... traveling. yep CDL time well it will be in about March 2015. really don't like the idea honestly. but there is just nothing left here anymore sick of going for jobs just to find out I am 1 of 20,000 or 40,000 or 60,000 people going for said job. the lotto has better odds and well lotto is a scam. So for the next year I just ain't going to do anything, then if all goes well in March or April 2015 ill get CDL-A and just go over the road. course if I do go that route once I leave here it looks I will be homeless.

Truth is I really don't have any reason to stay where I am. nothing here place is turning into another detroit. And we have way more people here then jobs. Don't help that it seems every Californian is coming here to live to escape the state they screwed up.

And someone may ask why I didn't go the CDL route long ago. well honestly I HATE traveling I really do I hate going cross town let alone to some other state. I did the traveling thing way to much when I was younger and had fistfulls of money. I did like the plains states and Texas. I also did like Alabama and the carolinas... SC seems to be the strangest of the carolinas. I also liked the interior NW (you know Montana,Idaho)

So I guess it is what it is.

kenthomas27 · Apr 12, 2014

wisebeardman said:

well. its been warm a few days and well all me bees be dead. they didn't survive the winter.

also it looks like in 2015 if all goes well I will be doing something I didnt really want to do... traveling. yep CDL time well it will be in about March 2015. really don't like the idea honestly. but there is just nothing left here anymore sick of going for jobs just to find out I am 1 of 20,000 or 40,000 or 60,000 people going for said job. the lotto has better odds and well lotto is a scam. So for the next year I just ain't going to do anything, then if all goes well in March or April 2015 ill get CDL-A and just go over the road. course if I do go that route once I leave here it looks I will be homeless.

Truth is I really don't have any reason to stay where I am. nothing here place is turning into another detroit. And we have way more people here then jobs. Don't help that it seems every Californian is coming here to live to escape the state they screwed up.

And someone may ask why I didn't go the CDL route long ago. well honestly I HATE traveling I really do I hate going cross town let alone to some other state. I did the traveling thing way to much when I was younger and had fistfulls of money. I did like the plains states and Texas. I also did like Alabama and the carolinas... SC seems to be the strangest of the carolinas. I also liked the interior NW (you know Montana,Idaho)

So I guess it is what it is.

This was one long post for Wisebeardman! It was every bit a WBM War and Peace! I had to put it down and come back to it later to finish. I didn't know you were the apiarists either. I always thought beekeeping would be something I'd like to do because I'm so fond of the hats.

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