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It's nice to know that I'm not the only insomniac in the world.
I am tired of my ex boyfriend constantly being on my brain. He was the only man who I truly loved with all my heart and finally felt like I had found true love. But he was so bad for me and the relationship was not godly. God pushed him out of my life for a reason and I have to keep reminding myself of that.
But when I'm alone at night in this empty apartment the memories of him follow me around like a ghost. I look in the corner and see his computer desk. A piece of junk mail comes every couple of weeks with his name on it like he still lives here. It's been over two years now. Why do I still feel this way! I wish I could just erase him from my brain and be done with this already.
My brother is getting married and I think "why can't that be me". Am I ever going to find someone that will truly love me unconditionally? I could date someone right now if I wanted but it wouldn't be of God. If I am not going to date right now I pray that the Lord would take these feelings of wanting a relationship away from me.
I wish I was having an "I'm ok just being by myself" kind of day. I'm lonely and frustrated by so many things. I feel like I've failed on so many levels and I just want to get an A for once.
I am tired of my ex boyfriend constantly being on my brain. He was the only man who I truly loved with all my heart and finally felt like I had found true love. But he was so bad for me and the relationship was not godly. God pushed him out of my life for a reason and I have to keep reminding myself of that.
But when I'm alone at night in this empty apartment the memories of him follow me around like a ghost. I look in the corner and see his computer desk. A piece of junk mail comes every couple of weeks with his name on it like he still lives here. It's been over two years now. Why do I still feel this way! I wish I could just erase him from my brain and be done with this already.
My brother is getting married and I think "why can't that be me". Am I ever going to find someone that will truly love me unconditionally? I could date someone right now if I wanted but it wouldn't be of God. If I am not going to date right now I pray that the Lord would take these feelings of wanting a relationship away from me.
I wish I was having an "I'm ok just being by myself" kind of day. I'm lonely and frustrated by so many things. I feel like I've failed on so many levels and I just want to get an A for once.