Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[rachelsedge]

As I sit here crying, a ball of emotions, contemplating about things and just thinking too much in general, this song and its words have been playing over in my head. Not a coincidence, I don't think. It's the whole "How Deep the Father's Love For Us" song, but these phrases in particular have been the ones running through my head:

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He would give His only son
To make a wretch (me) His treasure (again, me)

Why should I again from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

 

[DuchessAimee]

I need to stop thinking. Thinking gets me in trouble. Thinking... thinking is bad.

 

[Ugly]

I've seen at least 2 commercials so far for clothing stores (Old Navy and Macys) i assume other stores will have the same types of styles, the 'new trends this year'. The disturbing thing is, every item of clothing i saw for men look like it was made for a homosexual. All the guys looked gay, not because they acted it, but the clothes. This is disturbing, though fortunately i don't dress in clothes from clothing stores. So i'm safe.

 

[Donkeyfish07]

I just accidentally swallowed some scrabble tiles......my next poo could spell disaster

 

[Searching4Truth]

For many are called, but few are chosen.

I wonder what would be the point if I failed. Somehow the works aren't enough and I have to learn to accept grace. But do I have to work for grace as well? Either way, no matter who the party is, I'm still going to be judged for not working or for working too hard. I'm getting sick and tired of all this. I'm running around like a dog chasin' it's tail. If they are right about God, then what's the point of my life? I stumble through awkwardly trying to do the best I can, but no matter what, I can't please everyone. I can't be perfect, but yet we are to strive for it. Something tells me this path will only lead to my blind fall and I will only be another pharisee. I don't know if I can be transformed by grace. I'm below foolish. I hate judging other people. I hate judging myself. I hate how I have to be or act a certain way in front of certain people. I'd rather be an honest sinner then a lying hypocrite. I'd rather know I belong in the dirt and mud then some shining pedestal. I'd rather apologizes for another's sins and acknowledge my own.

It's easier to sacrifice one's self with an extremely low self esteem. Whether or not I'm chosen, I know God win's in the end.

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

I really should go back to bed.
Falling asleep in the recliner watching Cloverfield on VHS...
LIKE A BOSS.

 

[zeroturbulence]

I tell you the truth, "It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than it is for zero to lose weight."

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

Strange dream...not even sure was a dream,maybe a teaching??? The parallel between Superman 1 & 2 the movies & me as a christian????? Superman first off is who he is,that's not his disguise...being Clark Kent is his disguise.Me- a child of God,set apart,but because of original sin,garden of eden happenings...fall of man,now have to be puny mortal. Superman finds out his true self..what he really is,what he's called to be,what he was meant for via little crystal by dad. Me- finds out about Jesus,reads bible,learns what I was intended to be,learns about the sacrifice made so that I could be free of sin & be who I was meant to be. Fortress of Solitude = Superman's church or place he can chill out with his crystal archive learning center "aka the bible"...discovering more about himself,his family,where he comes from,instruction concerning his role in the universe & where he is at the moment,being earth. Get's time to recharge. Enter pretty lady...wants to protect & love her...knows they are unequally yolked. Lois Lane -unbeliever,but has the hots for superman. Superman the undisguised version of Clark Kent...Lois sees perfection & is drawn to it. Clark makes impulsive decision & removes glasses revealing,his true self. Look Look..I was hiding my light under a bushel...I am Christ-like,notice me...I have great qualities...oh & btw Lois,I'm in love with you even though yer' a total heathen. Superman with his choice. Give up his powers. (compromise his faith,weakening his walk with God) Just to be with Lois. Puts his desires before his responsibilities thus leaving himself open for attack. Satan sees this as prime time to strike...enter General Zod & his henchmen. Now Clark,a regression by choice to be mortal,gets rump handed to him by baddies! Can't even protect the ones he loves. Sees now the error of his ways...what to do??? Can there be forgivness? Father warned me. Yes...part of the crystal that build the fortress still exists...The Holy Spirit? Is this that still small voice..the word of God that never truly can be destroyed???? Use the crystal,turn away from sin..be who you are meant to be...you are God's Superman...come out from among the world & be a protector,a light,a beacon of light for all around you that are stumbling in the dark. Hmmm...Now equipped to kick some evil butt!
I have no idea what all this is..dreaming,tossing & turning...I don't even really care for Superman as a comic book character.
I dunno...all so strange. I wish I could just have a normal nights sleep like normal people...hahaha..oh man,in just thinking this to myself...the irony...if I end up normal...with normal sleep...will Zod come in & kick my butt?
I really am in the mood for a donut right now!

 

[Jullianna]

I had a dream that I saw a baby chick and some Peeps in a police line up. Oh wait. That was real.

(NOTE TO SELF: Never play Scrabble with Donkeyfish. I don't know where those tiles have been.)

 

[Jullianna]

Sleep, why doth thou elude me? Time to put on my fierce and attack. You've been warned, Sandman. Pillows locked N loaded.

 

[wisebeardman]

Sleep, why doth thou elude me? Time to put on my fierce and attack. You've been warned, Sandman. Pillows locked N loaded.

everybody tells me Ill get enough sleep when im dead...

 

[Jullianna]

everybody tells me Ill get enough sleep when im dead...

I think I woke up dead around 4:30 AM

 

[wisebeardman]

I think I woke up dead around 4:30 AM

I have been awake since 6pm.

 

[Jullianna]

arwen is gonna hurt us for talking on her thread...run!

 

[wisebeardman]

arwen is gonna hurt us for talking on her thread...run!

Who not????

 

[Markum1972]

9:05 am. People are talking about what time they woke up. Wondering what time I will. Of course I would first have to go to sleep still. Maybe I will just skip it today. Oh yeah... just remembered. Visiting family today. That should tire me out so I can sleep well tonight. Ugh... if I fall asleep now, I will probably miss the entire day.
<looks around the room, sees a scrabble game>
Hmm... I wonder how much DISASTER is worth with a double word score.
<sees rifle clips sticking out of a pillow case>
Hmm... that's pretty strange.
<sees Kryptonite>
OK... this is just getting weirder by the moment. Maybe I am suffering from sleep deprivation. I know what I will do.
<walks over to Aimee's table and gives her 5 cents>
Good grief.

 

[MissCris]

I had a rough few nights with the kiddos. I almost forgot what sleeping feels like. This morning when I woke up before the sun did, I felt kind of frustrated- not only did I have to wake up several times in the middle of the night, but I had to get out of bed that early too? Yuck. I'm over it. And then I went out on the porch with my coffee, and the sunrise was glorious- no other word for it. It was like God was telling me "I know you're wiped out, but there's beauty in everything...if your eyes are open." It was refreshing. Or maybe that was the coffee and cold air. Either way, I feel more human now.

 

[Powemm]

I read a post on tips for relationships a second ago... Something came when I read the importance of being equally yolked .. I'm now sitting here thinking on it ...
I was unequally yolked with God..but He was, is and still remains faithful to me......
Just has me thinking ...
Think I'll eat a donut

 

[arwen83]

I'm frustrated. On weekends I work 12 hours with someone who constantly complains about her job or just doesn't talk at all. Much of the time, I wonder if she is pissed off at me for something. When she does talk, it's about herself, and never asks about my life. We did talk a lot about God and Christianity a few months back, but I now realize it was a way she could impress a Christian guy.

 

[zaoman32]

Have you ever noticed the amount of ego of some people on this site? Like, for real, non-made up, genuine ego. One thread asks people where their gifted and there's a great big reply of someone talking about how great they are at putting words together and making sense out of biblical principles and how they have this wonderful blog where they post their sermons and apologetic's (pretty sure this guy was younger than me too). And then I get into a debate in another thread with someone on a certain subject, and in order to back up their argument this person gave a link. To another thread on this site, to more arguments they made on the same subject. Wow, really? Because you push your point you're an expert on the subject regardless of whether or not you have facts to back yourself up. Goodness, when will these people swallow their pride and practice some humility.