When is it time to take yourself out of people's lives?
Is it the moment you realize your lack of trust is hurting those
around you?
Is it when you don't know how to be anyone but who you are?
Is it when you no longer hear joy in their voice when they talk to you?
Is it when you hurt them and don't know how to pray away the fear
that causes you to hurt those around you?
I think I just answered myself. I think it is time to walk away from places
where I put myself in the position to hurt those who only want trust and
honesty. I am sorry for anyone I hurt from not trusting you to enter my life
and my world, enough to get to know ME. I pray you will learn to forgive
me. I just wanted to make friends and somehow get a piece of me
back a little at a time. I can't expect trust and faith to be given to me
when I haven't shown those things to the wonderful people here who
have touched a part of my heart in ten months. The past two weeks and
most especially the past 24 hours has shown me so much about myself
and I am not happy with what I see. I have to break lose of these shackles
of fear that bind my life. If you think of me, please just pray that I allow
God to do a miracle in my life and change me into who I need to be for
Him, because without that miracle how can I ever show the world God's
unselfish and trusting love.
Is it the moment you realize your lack of trust is hurting those
around you?
Is it when you don't know how to be anyone but who you are?
Is it when you no longer hear joy in their voice when they talk to you?
Is it when you hurt them and don't know how to pray away the fear
that causes you to hurt those around you?
I think I just answered myself. I think it is time to walk away from places
where I put myself in the position to hurt those who only want trust and
honesty. I am sorry for anyone I hurt from not trusting you to enter my life
and my world, enough to get to know ME. I pray you will learn to forgive
me. I just wanted to make friends and somehow get a piece of me
back a little at a time. I can't expect trust and faith to be given to me
when I haven't shown those things to the wonderful people here who
have touched a part of my heart in ten months. The past two weeks and
most especially the past 24 hours has shown me so much about myself
and I am not happy with what I see. I have to break lose of these shackles
of fear that bind my life. If you think of me, please just pray that I allow
God to do a miracle in my life and change me into who I need to be for
Him, because without that miracle how can I ever show the world God's
unselfish and trusting love.