Wow o.o; i find that hard to believe, sister!!! You look so, so, SO PRETTY!!!
Tintin is VERY blessed!!!
I can relate with being the girl that didn't take a lot of notice when i was younger. I was "one of the guys"
Never got bullied, 'coz i looked pretty tough. I was more like the "Underdog Avenger" then XD they don't dare mess with me, 'coz i'm not afraid to get bruised nor dirty. I didn't like wearing skirts nor dresses then (it felt so costumey for some reason o.o; i only wear them when i'm forced to, or when it's an actual costume for a school play).
I was WAY cuter when i was younger (my 0-9 yrs old phase), but so was everyone else, it seemed (much cuter than i was, even). Growing up from grade school to highschool, i "lost" that cuteness i had. Maybe it's because i barely smiled, being so moody and emo then XD minus the black lipstick and eyeliner!!! But even after i grew out of that emotional tunnel, i still didn't change so much.
Then the female secondarys start showing up, and i realize: "Hey...i'm a woman?
; REALLY?!?" I'm a really SUPER late bloomer.
But for years, i've been really, very insecure. I don't feel pretty, even 'til now. I honestly don't know when i could confidently say in front of everyone, without a joking tone in my voice that "I'm beautiful" even without being all done up. If you have a mom that says your face looks like a plate ('coz it's pretty round), that you NEED to put make up on your face, and that she never counted on you getting married, and expected that you'd end up as an old maid (because, even though she won't say it outright, she doesn't think you're beautiful nor pretty enough), it wouldn't be a wonder. It will take time for me to overcome the negative conditioning i've received for a long time.
So it's the other way around for me XD i'm more confident showing my childhood pics, and afraid to show my recent ones. I don't expect to be liked the way i look now. So, my posting of my selfie in that other thread actually took some amassing of courage. I didn't want to be called a "Chicken" XD but technically, i am half a chick 'coz i dared to show only half of my face!!!
Now, i don't want this "wall of text" to be a downer for the readers of this awesome thread XD what i can happily say now is that Papa GOD is teaching me to see myself with HIS eyes of love
No matter what i nor any other person would say otherwise, i am fearfully and wonderfully made, worthy of HIS thoughts numbering more than the sand
Worthy of HIS love and grace, inspite of my flaws and ugliness!!! And apparently, there IS someone else who sees me the way HE does
that's why i ALWAYS tell Descyple he is just weird and unbelievable!!! XD and him being sincere teaches me to believe it even more
As for my own Throwback pics, i will get on those once my internet at my place gets fixed