I do need to create myself boundaries.
At the moment, if offered sex, i would leap upon it. but I want to remain virgin (whats left of that) until my dying day, or possibly, if I have a really, really good reason, until I get married.
But as is, I am afraid that if I looked for or entered a relationship it would be for sex.
I currently never plan to marry, because i do feel like my past would create problems.
plus I don't want to force anyone to follow me. I feel called to missions.
And I dont want to have kids and make them leave their life. I do not want that.
My 'dealbreakers' are non-existent, except for being willing to follow me anywhere.
and some could say "you're only 15 man, loosen up." but with my past I feel 18. and I have said I am over 18 about 20-40 times.
