Wow, now I see why no relationship lasts. I could not get why my ex would destroy his own family for a 6 month fling to another married woman. I was a born again Christian, and so was he, he claimed. I did not however have Jesus as the cornerstone or foundation. I had my own faults in the marriage. I was very bitter to what he did for over 2 yrs. The Lord lead me to a new place, and the healing began. When I first joined this site I was lonely. IE my first thread. Then I was in a car wreck and been at home for a bit now. I have spent alot of time with the Lord and developing a relationship with him. Once in awhile I still desire the companionship of another. But most of the time I am content with spending time with my Lord and my children.
I see so much hurt and pain in people today. broken families, broken hearts, broken spirits. Even my ex, had a bad childhood and he let that define him. I too came from a bad childhood, but it sent me the opposite direction. All men are not bad and all women are not bad, and majority, have a heart breaking story that has allowed them to hold onto bitterness and pain, and lack of trust. The Lord has been kind enough to show me, and open my eyes to that that is around us. The hurt and broken. All of us at one point or another in our lives have been hurt. Do we hold onto that hurt or allow the Lord to heal us and learn from our own choices. There where warning signs before marrying my ex. I was lonely and did not see them. Looking back I do now. I made a choice, and I learned from that choice. I am far from perfect, and just learning this relationship with the Lord, and having a compassionate heart. I was one of the coldest fortified hearts you would have ever met, 2 yrs ago. I trusted no one, and I did not care to hear your story of excuses. The Lord put me to work in an ER after not working for 16 yrs, and taught me self control, and warmed my heart again. I walked away from a wreck that totaled my car with frame damage, a head on. The woman was going 60+ and flew through a light. Only my knee was injured. In allowing this, the Lord gave me time at home with him. Sure I could have been bitter. Not working, no car, insurance taking forever. Instead I allowed the Lord to work. My life will never be the same.
We all have stories, we all have been hurt, and we all have fallen short ourselves. We have a loving Father and Lord who can and will, if we allow, to jumpstart our walled and bitter and hurting and confused hearts. Sorry this is so long, but left it was a good place to share the Lord's unyielding love.
