Just be patient and prepare yourself for the Lord because when He call you home, you will get a new, pain-free body.
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Thank you for the scriptures and reminding me Jesus went threw more pain than I could ever believe. I do have a journal just have it filled up so probably need a new one. Writing helps me think and motivates me to learn new things. I love to read and write. It takes my mind off things. I use to have my little brother to talk to about God. But lately he been dealing with some things and seems to be acting out. And with my church I don't volunteer a lot because I am tired a lot. So its hard for me to meet people in church. And when I have a hard staying awake my wife pinches me nicely to wake up during the message. So I probably just look grumpy to people lol. I don't know if ever been somewhere you really don't like and you just feel thoughtless. I am in the same thing everyday state of mind. A lot of times feel like a zombie with no thoughts just moving place to place. Maybe that's me suppressing the emotions of being fed up with work or my work conditions. I could be suppressing them which creates zombie like mind as a self defense. Obviously a mind with nothing going on cant create anxiety or anger. But who knows. I am thankful to have found this site because I can connect on my own time. I work night shift so its nice to get on here after work or otherwise I am asleep when most people are around. Thank you again its awesome to be prayed for.
Thank you for the scriptures and reminding me Jesus went threw more pain than I could ever believe. I do have a journal just have it filled up so probably need a new one. Writing helps me think and motivates me to learn new things. I love to read and write. It takes my mind off things. I use to have my little brother to talk to about God. But lately he been dealing with some things and seems to be acting out. And with my church I don't volunteer a lot because I am tired a lot. So its hard for me to meet people in church. And when I have a hard staying awake my wife pinches me nicely to wake up during the message. So I probably just look grumpy to people lol. I don't know if ever been somewhere you really don't like and you just feel thoughtless. I am in the same thing everyday state of mind. A lot of times feel like a zombie with no thoughts just moving place to place. Maybe that's me suppressing the emotions of being fed up with work or my work conditions. I could be suppressing them which creates zombie like mind as a self defense. Obviously a mind with nothing going on cant create anxiety or anger. But who knows. I am thankful to have found this site because I can connect on my own time. I work night shift so its nice to get on here after work or otherwise I am asleep when most people are around. Thank you again its awesome to be prayed for.
You are right. An idle mind is the devil's playground. Its a good thing that you like reading and writing to keep your mind busy. Have you read "its not about me" by max lucado? Such a great book about focusing on God and not the self. Don't give up on God. Patience is learned through our tribulations. God bless...