Lately (ever since I met this Christian girl who told me she loved me right off the bat) I've been discerning everything I come across. Every thought, every sighting, every feeling, every word I hear,.. I process and analyze what I should do about it. More often than not, it's nothing. Sometimes, I get the feeling that I should do something about a thought, emotion etc,.. A very strong feeling (as if from God). But generally, if I get that kind of feeling, I do my best to remain passive and see what happens. If nothing, then the feeling goes away. It's tough though because in my nature, I want to do what I cannot for my will is limited. For instance, I want to do something but I can't because I don't know how to do it. So then, there are those times when I get the feeling that God is calling me to do something, yet I don't know what it is. All I know is the first step. And that is to trust that He will take care of it regardless of if I ever find out what it was He called me to do. His will is sovereign so I have no choice but to trust that whatever it is He wills for me to do about something, it will be done even if I know it or not. Yes, sometimes not knowing is a struggle but as I explained; when I don't know, God reminds me that I don't need to know. If it's meant for me to know, I will know it. The thing about this is that I had a feeling about this girl who said she loved me, I didn't know what feeling it was because it wasn't just one feeling. Confused maybe? Anyway, when that happened, I was very troubled. As I did not know why God willed for that girl to say those things to me and to make me feel that way. So I remained passive and discerned what the possible outcomes may be, if God willed for it to progress and we engage in conversance, then it would happen somehow. Though now, as I remain passive, I get the feeling that God did not will for that to happen, as it has not happened. I do not rule out the possibility that it may still happen, but now I will not that it may happen for it seems it is only my will for it to happen. If I will that which God has not willed, then I am deceiving myself,.. So I use discernment between my will and God's will. My will is not always what God wills, no. But when it is, I know because God enacts His will and my will is harmonized to His and it comes to pass exactly how it should. So now, I will not to pursue feelings for this woman, as God has convinced me that it is not His will. As a human being, I am constantly encountering different thoughts, emotions and people in general. So I must continue to discern everything as if I am in a war zone. It is true, what paul speaks of about the gifts of the Holy Spirit, the discerning of spirits is a gift indeed. It remains, that I discern spirits daily. So as to date, I discern that there is one spirit that is in keeping with God's will, His spirit. He does not guide me toward a spirit that is not His. His spirit is in me and He enables me to discern if His spirit is in someone else. How do I know if it is His spirit in someone? By the harmonization of spirits in Truth. There is one who I know of that I feel I am being drawn towards that has His spirit. Until I know for sure, I continue to pray and discern the will of my spirit in this alongside what His spirit may be willing in all this,..
. One time, way back when, when I was 26, I liked a girl in church singles group, she helped me understand things God wanted from me. He uses others. That word just given was from words someone related to me at church this morning, the pastor and his wife doing message together, first time that's been done in His 7 years. anyway, going to church this eve, . will continue. but try to.be true to.arsenal thread intent, no conversation as best can. I guilty of this, too, just saw arwenbaggins scolding of tintin and so , anyway, I sorry milady, for that, I pray He leads me 
