Morning Cup! I guess I want to just say why I believe God does not hear me, and if He does, He is not doing as I ask! One of two things is happening. God does not hear me at all, or He is playing hard to give! He does not play games, so the latter n=must be true! Not hearing and not giving can easely be explained in the Word. Paul had one prayer not given , but he still had it answered! God spoke verbally to him telling him why He is not going to give it to Paul! I do not get what is ask, not even answers to why I do not get it! And the answers I do get is in the Word, and here are all of them. I am a sinner and WE know God does not hear sinners. Then another one... James 4:3 3Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts. Now this one I suspect is not so relevant to me as I have very little if none at all lusts left, only after His will I lust!
If it is a lust to be physically well, and rid of all sickness, then I guess I still lust! I have tongselities for twelve days now, the longest by nine days in my life! And I thought I am the better "Christian" now than I ever was before! Am I not as good as I can be? Did i not follow His leads out of many sin in my life if not all! You see i was far from his righteousness, a man with multiple sin. So i have to repent from let us say 400 sins, but did you know that the man with a single sin is just as far away from the saintship as me? He might get there before me, but untill he gets there we are equally.... un-saint!
So now I am far less sinner, but i am still ...un-saint... sinner! If i started with 400 and there is one left, i am still sinner! I will be saint if I laid down my last one, and He gives me forgiveness, and with the forgiveness, comes an extra bonus....Victory! The authority over that particular sin. And if He gives me authority over ALL sin in my life, He gave me authority over sin to the measure of His Son! Then i can say to a sick man...Stand up your sin is forgiven! and the people will also think Jesus is once again a blasphemer in my body, because the Victory I get is Jesus! And whatever this mouth i touch now, will ask it will recieve, because it is not me asking But He Himself in me!
Before that, this mouth will ask only one thing...."Lord, Jesus Christ, forgive me, I am sinner, please save me! Please! Let thou will be done in my body and life! Amen!" This is my prayer for four years now, and still, no answer! No giving, and no verbal answer! Except!!
Every night the visits from the Holy Spirit in my dreams, and visions... and the Good news...."SOON SON YOU GET TO KEEP IT!" Have i got it yet, who knows, maybe by the time you read this He might eventually give me what He has in store for me.... Everlasting Life! "May the Lord Christ Jesus, be in me, and I in Him! Amen!" Same prayer than the one above, to all who Know!
Or should i say to hell with all and God and just return to the evil adulterer, thief, liar, drinker, foul mouth, swindler, false witnesser and hater of all people that i was before?