WW21 and Itore, thank you for being so honest.
I've had several major prayers in my life that were solidly answered with a no. Not to go off on a big tangent, but a few examples were:
1. That my husband would change his mind about the divorce. (NO.)
2. That my beloved Grandma would pull through and be miraculously healed. (NO, she died a week later.)
3. That a medical issue I've struggled with for years would be healed and that a very expensive, newer treatment I paid for myself would be successful. (NO and NO.)
4. That a situation in my workplace would turn around (NO, it just got worse.)
5. That I wouldn't be so alone anymore (this is either a very long WAIT--15 years and running--or, another NO.)
I admit I'll be the first to tell you that God has done some wonderful things in my life and blessed me with an amazing family, But now I pray mostly for other people, countries, and situations (I did this before, too, it's just that now, I pray very little about anything for myself anymore.)
To be honest, I've felt beaten down for years. My biggest prayer regarding my own life now is: "Lord, let your will be done... Because I already know that whatever is your will is what's going to happen anyway. So please, help me learn to live with it."
Yup. It's the prayer of a cynic and would probably be torn apart by most Christians. But it's also the prayer of someone who doesn't know what to expect... except, most likely, the opposite of what she asked.
If you ever need to talk, please feel free to look me up.
I've had several major prayers in my life that were solidly answered with a no. Not to go off on a big tangent, but a few examples were:
1. That my husband would change his mind about the divorce. (NO.)
2. That my beloved Grandma would pull through and be miraculously healed. (NO, she died a week later.)
3. That a medical issue I've struggled with for years would be healed and that a very expensive, newer treatment I paid for myself would be successful. (NO and NO.)
4. That a situation in my workplace would turn around (NO, it just got worse.)
5. That I wouldn't be so alone anymore (this is either a very long WAIT--15 years and running--or, another NO.)
I admit I'll be the first to tell you that God has done some wonderful things in my life and blessed me with an amazing family, But now I pray mostly for other people, countries, and situations (I did this before, too, it's just that now, I pray very little about anything for myself anymore.)
To be honest, I've felt beaten down for years. My biggest prayer regarding my own life now is: "Lord, let your will be done... Because I already know that whatever is your will is what's going to happen anyway. So please, help me learn to live with it."
Yup. It's the prayer of a cynic and would probably be torn apart by most Christians. But it's also the prayer of someone who doesn't know what to expect... except, most likely, the opposite of what she asked.
If you ever need to talk, please feel free to look me up.