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Apologies for the self-pity pessimistic post here but, whatever.. I need to get this off my chest. No one has to respond, I just need to vent to the interwebs.
Been feeling that perhaps it's best that I don't find a guy. My life is complicated, I am complicated. Guys don't want baggage hey? I get tired easily, need to nap a lot. I don't like to stay out too late. I don't drink, I don't care to be among large parties. I won't have sex before marriage. I am not so talkative about my faith as others are. I don't volunteer in the church, sometimes I don't go. I am not sure if I can have biological children. I can be quite stubborn and selfish.
So if a guy ever becomes interested in me, I feel that I have to explain all this so we don't both waste our time. It just seems for me to get serious with a guy, he would have to know all this then still accept me. It just doesn't seem like it will happen.
I wish I had a cat. That use to help the loneliness.
Been feeling that perhaps it's best that I don't find a guy. My life is complicated, I am complicated. Guys don't want baggage hey? I get tired easily, need to nap a lot. I don't like to stay out too late. I don't drink, I don't care to be among large parties. I won't have sex before marriage. I am not so talkative about my faith as others are. I don't volunteer in the church, sometimes I don't go. I am not sure if I can have biological children. I can be quite stubborn and selfish.
So if a guy ever becomes interested in me, I feel that I have to explain all this so we don't both waste our time. It just seems for me to get serious with a guy, he would have to know all this then still accept me. It just doesn't seem like it will happen.
I wish I had a cat. That use to help the loneliness.