So many thoughts rambling around in my head with nowhere to go but out...
No matter what I say or don't say, do or don't do, there will always be somebody waiting to be offended or upset about it. And that...is not my problem. I used to let it be, I used to accept the blame for other people's negative feelings. But, as I have been learning on my own and with the help of others, what a person feels and how they react is Their Own Choice. The same goes for myself- I Choose how to react to those around me. Is it uncomfortable to admit that? Totally. True anyway.
And I am choosing to no longer let other people's insecurities or jealousy or bitterness rule my actions and my life.
There are many things I like about myself that have generally gotten put down by people who are insecure in themselves, and I'm not going to keep making apologies for being who I am. I'm not sorry that God gave me a few talents. I'm not sorry for posting way too much of my crazyness here. And I'm not sorry for thinking about the future and the possibility that I may someday be ready for another relationship.
People can keep their bitterness and hypocrisy and jealousy to themselves...I'm not responsible for what They feel.
That all being said...!
Of course I don't want to be a jerk, or hurt anyone. If I had the power, I would magically fix everything for everyone...or at least give them awkward hugs until they pretend to feel better just so I'll go away.
But, just as I can't be held responsible for anyone's negative emotions, neither can I force them to have good ones. Sooo, I'll just do what I do, be who I am, make people smile or irritate them to death...and not worry whether they love me or hate me or wish I would stop posting so much or wish I would make more sense or...
Dang, I broke a nail.
No matter what I say or don't say, do or don't do, there will always be somebody waiting to be offended or upset about it. And that...is not my problem. I used to let it be, I used to accept the blame for other people's negative feelings. But, as I have been learning on my own and with the help of others, what a person feels and how they react is Their Own Choice. The same goes for myself- I Choose how to react to those around me. Is it uncomfortable to admit that? Totally. True anyway.
And I am choosing to no longer let other people's insecurities or jealousy or bitterness rule my actions and my life.
There are many things I like about myself that have generally gotten put down by people who are insecure in themselves, and I'm not going to keep making apologies for being who I am. I'm not sorry that God gave me a few talents. I'm not sorry for posting way too much of my crazyness here. And I'm not sorry for thinking about the future and the possibility that I may someday be ready for another relationship.
People can keep their bitterness and hypocrisy and jealousy to themselves...I'm not responsible for what They feel.
That all being said...!
Of course I don't want to be a jerk, or hurt anyone. If I had the power, I would magically fix everything for everyone...or at least give them awkward hugs until they pretend to feel better just so I'll go away.
But, just as I can't be held responsible for anyone's negative emotions, neither can I force them to have good ones. Sooo, I'll just do what I do, be who I am, make people smile or irritate them to death...and not worry whether they love me or hate me or wish I would stop posting so much or wish I would make more sense or...
Dang, I broke a nail.