i think a lot of us are waiting for the day when mental illness is something without so much stigma attached to it. so many brilliant and lovable people suffer, there's really no need to throw salt in the wounds of the mentally afflicted, not that i'm suggesting any of you are doing this.
we all just need love and understanding. there's so little even doctors and specialists know about it, and spirituality seems to go hand in hand and play a substantial role.
i have a dream, someday that there will be more compassion and open mindedness and truth to be shared and discovered about depression and things like manic depression and schizophrenia.
i have a feeling many suffer and wear masks pretending that nothing is wrong. i don't really know how this serves any positive purpose. there seems to me to be a scapegoat mentality towards those who suffer mentally and emotionally. it's heartbreaking. it's not nice to feel like 'damaged goods,' and doesn't help those who are going through this kind of testing.
i'm trying to withdraw more to my bible now, and pray more often. hopefully i can turn the t.v. off and spend less time on the computer. i'd like to build a life outside of screens. my heart goes out to all those who suffer, as i suffer along with you.
such a sad and empty feeling when i've become wrapped up in virtual life. i want to do more than this, i want to live. i want to have self discipline and reach towards the King of kings and be validated by him.
i'm going to try really hard to limit my time on here and other internet domains, especially if they have nothing to do with the kind of studying i need to be applying myself to. it's really time to dig deeper, this isn't life sustaining. my spirit is hungry, thirsty, tired and dirty. i need my Saviour, i need my Yeshua, and i need him now.
some things have got to change.