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zeroturbulence

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I've just been let down so much that it's really not worth it anymore. I can easily befriend males and find those are the most quality of friendships that I've had in the past. But those are always temporary. But it's just so complicated, and the closeness and great feelings of inclusion have always been temporarily. Everyone moves along. Everyone parts from me. Not just a saying, I have proof. Little initiation of contact on their part. It's just the way things are for me. I suppose I am not very entertaining to keep people around. I've accepted this long ago, but still I reach out to connect with others.
At least you still try to connect. I tell myself it will just be a disappointment if I try.
 
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MissCris

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*sigh*

My sister got on facebook and unfriended every member of our mom's side of the family. It sounds awfully silly and overdramatic, but she got her message across- she's done with us.

In a way, I'm really mad that she's got this attitude that all we've ever done is hurt her- because Lord knows I have tried and tried to fix whatever it is I did wrong.
But then...I keep thinking of all the things I did do wrong, and I feel like I should have done more to fix things.

I dunno. I feel so very strange today.
 

hoss2576

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I've just been let down so much that it's really not worth it anymore. I can easily befriend males and find those are the most quality of friendships that I've had in the past. But those are always temporary. But it's just so complicated, and the closeness and great feelings of inclusion have always been temporarily. Everyone moves along. Everyone parts from me. Not just a saying, I have proof. Little initiation of contact on their part. It's just the way things are for me. I suppose I am not very entertaining to keep people around. I've accepted this long ago, but still I reach out to connect with others.
Okay, I am probably going to say something that is going to be really unpopular. Sometimes you have to look at these situations from the other side for a little more perspective. Arwen you come across as depressed most of the time I see you in chat or when I read some of your posts. I am not making light of it, just how I see it. The problem with being around someone who always seems to be in a state of depression is that you don't necessarily know how to respond to them, and truthfully being around a depressed person in emotionally draining. Unless you have been through it, you can't relate to it. So it is easier, for the other person, to just stay away, because they don't know how to respond. I mean no response seems good enough or seems to help when trying to connect to a person who seems depressed. It is not an excuse for how other people treat one another, just a point to consider. I also say this as someone who felt similar isolation for an extended period because simply put I don't think people knew how to approach me when I went through it.

I also learned in the process that I ccouldn't focus on the ones who weren't coming around or the ones who I thought were "disappointing" me. I had to focus on the others; the ones who loved me and who were there at the moment. If you go looking for disappointment, that is all you will find.
 

zeroturbulence

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I just want to say that I've seen Arwen in chat a few times and she didn't seem depressed to me and I'm not just saying that. She seemed alert and focused to me. People who are depressed won't even come on mic and cam and she has. I personally think the problem with making and keeping friends is more an issue of others being 'in the world', friends who don't want you if you can't/won't do things that are hip and popular or fit in with their lifestyles.

Arwen, I already know you would be a great friend and it sucks that genuinely good people get cast aside by those who care more about being popular than about having real friendships.
 
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blueorchidjd

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So Boredom just set in, I constructed a tiny strawberry village out of strawberry stems and sprinkles.
Life is a bag of trix.
 
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blueorchidjd

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I also told someone that I was going to kick their butt today.
They deserved it.
I also didn't say butt.
 

lil_christian

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Why is my house so hot? *Sigh* This may be a long night.

I have worship in the morning that I have to leave for in less than 8 hours. But I still have dishes to do, and I'd prefer to do them.
 
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arwen-undomiel

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Sorry for being such a downer. Guess I should just brighten up. I don't care what people think of me. Perhaps, I use CC as an outlet to express my emotions that aren't so neat. It is a journal of thoughts that maybe we can connect with each other. THIS is why I made the thread for everyone. If you think that I am constantly like that, well I'm not. You don't know me. You don't know the circumstances to which those friendships ended. BUT putting blame on my depression, that I am a burden to other people and that's why they left, is inappropriate.
 

zeroturbulence

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Sorry for being such a downer. Guess I should just brighten up. I don't care what people think of me. Perhaps, I use CC as an outlet to express my emotions that aren't so neat. It is a journal of thoughts that maybe we can connect with each other. THIS is why I made the thread for everyone. If you think that I am constantly like that, well I'm not. You don't know me. You don't know the circumstances to which those friendships ended. BUT putting blame on my depression, that I am a burden to other people and that's why they left, is inappropriate.
You're not a downer, Arwen. And I agree, that wasn't very relevant.
 
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wwjd_kilden

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Cheer up arwen, this is the internet, people will have strong opinions that we disagree with, and will often show their emotions in ways on wouldnt offline. Just stick to those people that make you feel good rather than the ones that makes you feel bad.
Thats what I do anyway
 
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Ugly

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Cheer up arwen, this is the internet, people will have strong opinions that we disagree with, and will often show their emotions in ways on wouldnt offline. Just stick to those people that make you feel good rather than the ones that makes you feel bad.
Thats what I do anyway
Looks like she quit again.
 

cinder

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arwen,

When you come back we'll be here. Just let us know it's you. Sounds like your enemy's been taking pot shots at you again. Don't let him win.

He believed that before we are born we choose our parents and choose our life. That we knew all the challenges we were going to face in this life before we were born and this is the life we chose in order to challenge ourselves because he said that in heaven everything is always perfect and so after awhile we wish to challenge ourselves and come back to live another life. Ok, I don't know if I believe it myself, but its a nice thought.. isn't it?
Don't believe it; this is completely not biblical.

Thursday I had a falling out with my best friend.
Later I left him a tearful voice mail.
I waited.
I texted him today to see if he had received my voice mail

I may have lost my best friend.
I may have lost my best friend because I spoke to him harshly out of a place of fear, that I allowed it to escalate, and that I took it personal when he dragged my parenting into the argument.

I may have lost my best friend, but I tried to apologize.
And I will give it a little more time and try again.
But in the end, any loss will be that he chose to not forgive me.
I'm imperfect, but I am trying to do my part.

It still sucks either way.
Yeah, that's pretty crappy. I hope he remembers what a good friend you have been and you guys get things patched up soon.
 
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Good morning Jesus and those who Love Him! I so enjoy awaking everyday in the Bosom of my Loving Daddy and hearing his heart beat as my head is on His Mighty Chest and the First Words He tells me every day are "I Love You So Much" Oh if I was any more joy filled by the Holy Spirit of Jesus I'd POP hAAHaaAAAA!!
 
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Charcoal

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(just the part directed @ me...)
Yeah, that's pretty crappy. I hope he remembers what a good friend you have been and you guys get things patched up soon.
Thank you for your consoling words. (awkward side hug)
 

cinder

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Thank you for your consoling words. (awkward side hug)
my version of the awkward hug is having to ask if I know you well enough to hug you before I do. *hugs that is as long as internet hugs don't make your girlfriend jealous.