My weekend update.
So, my sister and brother-in-law got in later than I thought they would on Friday, so by the time we got to the coffee house, the band was only playing for another 20 minutes. I did see the guy I came for and we waved and he said hey, then he went back up on stage. It was fun. But then I had us leave immediately after. Because I'm a weenie. Didn't say bye or anything. I'm never gonna get married if I do that, I just...I freak out. And it's so stupid.
Then today, my sister came to church with me. It was...good I think? Very small. A little different. We left right after, didn't stay and chat or say bye, again. My sister and her husband wanted to leave by 1 due to the coming snow storm, and it was noon by the time church was done and we still had a 20 minute drive back plus lunch. I may go down to the cafe tomorrow morning and explain why we had to leave but that I enjoyed it.
The guy I like sat up front, he lead worship. Towards the end of the service I saw a younger girl sitting by him and leaning on him and my heart sank and I thought "Welp. Dead end." I couldn't tell who it was or how old they were. Then the pastor called him up to play the piano while he prayed, and the pastor said, "I feel bad for making you come up here when your daughter was so comfortable on you!" So...he has a daughter. I did not know that. It's not a bad thing, I was just like...oh. I wonder what this means. I just looked on his Facebook and he's 35 so he's older than I thought. Which also isn't bad, I just...didn't know.
I don't know where I'll go to church next week. I may go back? It didn't seem like there were many other singles there, which is fine, the people were very friendly. I just think it may be harder to connect.
And my brother-in-law and sister are gone now and the house is so quiet and I feel sad and lost again. I'll be okay. Just gotta readjust. I did have fun this weekend with them though. It went by too fast.