Thanks so much, Molly. Yes, I pray and read God's Word regularly. Praise and worship music helps too. There's a lot going on in my life at the moment and some decisions I've made in last couple months seem to be made of my own free will, but could possibly be difficult friends manipulating things to how they want them (for good or ill), rather than letting me make my own decisions. It's scary and frustrating, to put it mildly. I've had to get professional help in the past (back in my mid-20s) but I thought that black ship had sailed. I'm not happy about this, but it's necessary. I need peace, clarity and some form of direction. Thanks your prayers, my dear sister.