You see,This is the false impression of once saved always saved. We can't do what ever we want, it don't work that way. We have to follow Gods will and be an example of Him, and when we sin we repent and sin no more. This is an exact example of why this phrase is taught wrong. Well.... I know I am going to get blasted for this comment and that if fine but it needed to be said.
I am so glad to see you post this. I once believed that I was saved, because I had made all the right statements and believed what the bible said. I was a member in the church, even had been considered for a slot as an elder. And I was doing whatever I wanted to do, things which were as evil and awful and sinful as can be imagined. No one knew, and I hid it very well. I could act as christian as anyone else, maybe even better, because I have a photogenic memory and could quote scripture as good as anyone. And I was going to hell, no doubt about it. I just didn't think so, I believed that my belief would save me.
But God, in His mercy, opened my eyes. He showed me my life as it appeared to Him, and He rejected it, completely. He told me that He could not accept me into His kingdom with my life. I was devastated! But the revelation was not over. He took that life which was so against Him and placed it into Jesus on the cross. It was gone, over, finished. And then, just so I would know just where I stood, He told me that He would keep my old life there in Jesus on the cross, because He knew that I would just take that life right down from the cross and start to live in it again. I did not humble myself, but God humbled me, for His own purposes. I have no boast, before man or before God.
We have no hope but He saves us. We cannot just say the words, profess and believe unto salvation. There must be a new beginning, and a relationship with the Father through Jesus by the Spirit. And the new life is not like unto the old life, which was destined for destruction, but is perfect and complete and full of love and peace and hope. And that new life does not judge, but only sees what God sees, and only knows what God knows, and only speaks what God speaks. True righteousness.
Again, thank you for posting this,
In His peace,