Yeah didn't think anyone could help me.
Yea they can't. Because the only one who can is Jesus.
Besides, all that junk you hold, is just similar to a lot of junk all of us hold, so don't anybody down you about it. If these Christians claim how simple and easy it is to get rid of addiction, ask them how easy it was to lose their belly fat, or that sin they struggled with for 10+ years and still do?
I'm just saying... If you really want to get rid of it, you gotta start seeking the face of God, intimately, willingly, dying to yourself constantly, and forsaking your own life for the cause of Christ. Only then, when you're in the will of God, chains get broken, ropes get loosen, and power of holy Spirit shines better in you.
Forget all that "I need to do this, I gotta do this, I have to stop that..." It never works, and if it did, it was because of holy Ghost to start with. But if you catch yourself in this phase, is because A) You love the sin. B) You like the pleasure C) etc... And because of this, God has to work on your heart personally, refining you out of that process where you have to stop enjoying your sin, and starting to hate it. Thus, the process of going into the shed, or going into the wilderness begins in your life.
But if you aren't willing to walk into the wilderness with God, your just going to be stuck where you are for life. That's true preaching. God bless, and as I speak this, I feel a sense of holy Ghost with me. So I believe this message to be anointed by Christ. Take care brother, and start walking with Jesus.
"He who does not hate his father, mother, brother, and sister, cannot be my disciple..."
And remember brother, all of this is just a refining process in Gods kingdom to make you white as snow, shining brighter, and going from glory to glory with Christ Jesus. Even if God set you free instantly, the problem is, we aren't in that position in our life to not go back to the very thing he delivered us from to begin with. And because of this, we just end up going back to that very sin he delivered us from! With this in mind, God works in mysterious ways, ways that rid you of that joy for that sin, and create a longing-love for him. But it's a long process, and that process duration depends how willing you are to obey and listen by faith.
And I say again, God bless, and take care brother.
Ill leave you with another word that blessed me and my life, "(Your name here) if you love me, you'll die to yourself."