Well, I don't think you're being conceited or anything. I think it's the first step to freedom. Confession it is. Oh and I recall I posted a VM on your wall saying "Smile, you're beautiful!" That was
both a compliment and an encouragement.
A few things first, rather than the
beauty that you were given, the decisions you've made back then, were, as you said, what you "
felt about yourself." There is a big difference.
It is not because of what you've been given. It's like saying:
"I'm miserable because I have a Samsung and not an iPhone." No offence to Samsung fans, but this is the closest analogy I can think of for teenagers (and I love you Samsung guys). Instead of the '
phone' being the source of the problem, it is '
ungratefulness'.
So if we take some time to dive in deep, what is it really that you hate about your past?
If it's the wrong decisions you've made, then that's an entirely different thing. Here's a newsflash: We're all going through that. You're not alone in this struggle. I have made decisions in my past that are pretty filthy and unimaginable for a preacher's kid. And I'm pretty sure Mo0448 has, as well. Even the owner of this site! Heck, even your parents and your friends. Do you see the point?