The part that I put in bold and enlarged, that is telling. As of a matter of fact, if you did believe that you would be healed. That is the irony in your statement. If you actually believed that, and knew the Gospel truth that is through Christ's flesh we have healing and did pray and believe you might just be surprised with the results.
If you would step out and believe you would see results. You say if you believed that in prayer healing occurs you would step out. Then step out! Believe! Then be amazed at what the Lord does through a vessel who steps out in faith and see His word confirmed.
Ben, the point is life is not like this. Faith and belief are founded on understanding and knowing who Jesus is. At its core is a relationship.
Now though you claim great faith, you are the first to admit you cannot walk
in purity and righteousness, as I would describe it.
Your view is founded on what Christ has done alone, and not on the man who prays.
The problem with your position, is you have to put it into action, personally before I
will take you seriously. Healer heal yourself.
Either you say people are given the ministry of healing which is not specific to believers
so you are free from exercising this great faith you claim is there for the taking or you
need to take it yourself.
Now if the Lord lays on my heart to pray and reach out to people, then that is what I will
do.
Healing physically for me is a gift of grace, which fits particular situations, witnessing,
love being expressed to an individual, the Lords people agreeing, but is not part of
our daily walk.
The dilemma with healing is demonstrated by the 10 lepers who Jesus healed. Only
1 came back to ask about who healed them. People hold out the view that God
healing physically changes everything, when you can see though many believe He
does, still fail and drift away in their faith.
What grieves me, is this obvious dilemma is dealt with is such an unloving way.
And those who hold so strongly to God heals everything all the time, also hold
the prodigal son was not lost, but Jesus declared this very reality in the parable.
"For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate."
Luke 15:24
Also those who hold so strongly to miracles everywhere are so quick not to understand love and the
emotional realities of the heart. Again this is odd, that those who claim to know the power of God
know so little about His reality.