Why don't you do what JESUS said to do...follow HIM...and stop looking at your brother.
"what is it to YOU that HE should let him (or her) tarry until HE comes? YOU, YOU, YOU follow HIM...
Okay?
One of the reason Martha's service was at the risk of suffering, was because she was too busy looking at her sister...
and in her "worries" about what she shouldn't have worried about, her own service was divided...
I think you have missed the point. I came to share love, encouragement, grace, blessing
to know how to walk deeper in Christ and was set upon.
This feeling and reality is still here and continues. I read the sentiments put forward.
Now you are right, I am following Christ. If I was not following Christ I would be following
something else. I, as in my self existance, which encompases everything about me, chooses
and goes here and there. It is I that sins, it is I who walks in righteousness and purity or gets
defiled. Your language is like the idea you can be self excluded, when for the whole of your life
you will be you. Paul, Peter, John etc followed Jesus. Are you ashamed to follow Jesus?
I am not, He is the Lord, the Lord of Glory, the Lamb who was slain, but now is alive.
And we follow Jesus in the power of the Spirit, redeemed and washed, a holy people called unto
God. Maybe this is too assertive for you, because you are ashamed and dare not shout, Jesus is
mine and I am His, because He told me so. Do you believe His words, the words of God made man?
If you believe in Him you will have eternal life. Nothing can snatch it away from you, if you follow.