Sucks doing all you can for people and getting less in return. Not just random people but people you invest in personally. But if each time the same thing comes up, is it you that's the problem, or them? Even if they are very different people. Seems those kinds of investments are not worth while if people won't return to you the same things you give to them. Makes you feel broken, defective. Not able to be repaired. And yeah, I know all the cliche spiritual responses to that. But that's not how my life works, so spare me. Just it all grows old. Two directions, one unhappy ending.