So you believe in GOD and Jesus..
Do you believe you have sinned against your Creator?
I believe my conduct to date has been irreconcilable with what you refer to as "God" and I refer to as "creation". My own life is a fundamental imbalance of some kind. As such I know the only problem in the whole of creation is the problem within myself. That is why I trust the science of the teachings of Jesus; I understand he portrays himself as an empty vessel; just one man alone by himself, but he subtly suggests that he is one with "the Father".
Jesus spoke Aramaic; there are substantially fewer words available in such a language as compared to English. When you choose an Aramaic word, you choose it carefully, and you choose it wisely, not for what it describes (physically), but for the qualities implied by the word itself (symbolic).
For example, "father" is one who:
Begets the son, nurtures the son, teaches the son, instructs the son, disciplines the son wherever necessary, holds the son accountable etc.
Thus when Jesus said he and "the Father" were one; "the Father" is in him, and HE IS IN YOU, he is:
1. Portraying himself as "alone I am just a man"
2. Thereby placing his "status" EQUAL to the common man. (This is where Christians fell to the Roman dogma: the flipped Jesus from "alone just a man", which is THE ENTIRE BASIS OF HIS TEACHING, and made him God in the flesh. Do you see the deception which has been used?
3. He (being equal to you) is in you, thereby placing the "vessel" of his own being directly inside of YOU.
4. NOW: Your eye be single and be one with "the Father" and pay ABSOLUTE ATTENTION at all times; no judgment of good/evil (tree of knowledge of good/evil=dead) which is "take no thought" as he repeated over and over.
5. Christ thus becomes again through yourself, BECAUSE HE IS IN YOU.
You seem to be exploring the inner you... and noticing much about your surroundings... I agree with the Time although it remains the same tick tick on the clock it is faster than our youth.. so our perception of times changes as we age. Our awareness changes as our mortal grows..
It is good to hear some agreement somewhere.
Now, we have all come short of the glory of GOD we have sinned.
You have come short of the "standard" the dogmas have set upon you; I do say you are the creator of your own experience; they make you think not because it is they who enter not within themselves (the dogma makers). I mentioned in a previous post:
When you dream at night, you are simultaneously creating and experience a subjective experienced within yourself; requiring no outside resources other than your own. Now this "creation" mechanism within you is lighting the world you perceive; you may perceive it not now, but your life energies (and how much of them are "truly" your own and not sanctioned away to deception of dogma) are what is lighting the world in which you experience "life". As such, you are AS JESUS SAID IT IS NOT WRITTEN that you are the damn Gods! You just are not one with "the Father" because if you were, it is as to become lucid and "become like God" by realizing the whole good and evil delusion (forbidden fruits) which are best reflected in the physical world as, you guessed it, dogmatic religion. Which institution in the world do you believe holds the most currency in the debate regarding good and evil? That would be, religion itself. It is the deception, and it runs insanely (literally) deep in these days. That is until people wake up and realize (accept), lest any man DENY HIMSELF (Christ) AND TAKE HIS OWN DAMN CROSS. It is a matter of acceptance; you either accept, or you do not. Red pill, blue pill.
The Good News is GOD is offering forgiveness and if we believe we can be born again of the Holy Spirit by Grace through Faith in the Messiah.
The Messiah must return only within you; you must see this, for how could the story of Jesus be eternal in truth if it not be the story of every man who lives? This is why the Apostles creed was so important; it was the narrative that best reflected the story of every man.
Repent and believe and the power of GOD will make you a new and you will be reconciled with GOD who is a Spirit and you will be able to worship Him in Spirit and Truth.
There is what you refer to as your "self" and creation; relative to your own life experience, you are the only imbalance in the whole of it. As Jesus dies for the sins of mankind from your perspective; so does man die due to his inability to eat from the tree of knowledge of good/evil, which is the source of death itself. You must eliminate "take no thought" all thought from mind, including Roman backwards-assed dogma, and actually simply become one with (if your eye be single, body will fill with light) "the Father", or creation, or God, or Buddha, or Krishna, or Allah or whatever is your God; fundamentally, there is only ONE; and you're the act within your own life experience, relative to you.
There is no other way to be saved.. though you know good and evil without the New seed you are condemned if you choose not to Repent and believe.
You can not pardon yourself my friend even though you search deep.. there is only one answer to your exploring..
GOD is good and love but there is only one way to be reconciled with Him.
Jesus himself wouldn't even let people call him GOOD, let alone God, for a good God damned reason, being..
May you come to Repent and believe.
...don't eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil and "believe" what they tell you; christ is within each man who will ever live, including you, because as they say; that art thou; or, you're it. You're the cosmic act.
Some cultures in the East call it "the cosmic joke"; that art thou; you're it; peek-a-boo etc. No? Don't worry enlightenment happens to everyone guaranteed; it's just that the vast majority of people only realize at the moment of death. I described the process of time speeding up upon death; this will display the totality of the final outcome.
That's why Jesus said he is the alpha and omega; beginning and end; first and last; and that which is in him is also in you; but you can only grasp the IMMENSITY of this if you applied the "just one man" concept correctly; Jesus is the empty vessel to be placed upon your own "lamp" or body. The (parable) teachings apply thereafter thus. But hey, no, Jesus is God! And the savior stuff starts etc.
peace and love.