I understand the advice on here I get it. I have applied for an apartment. I will be talking to the people at abw. I have told friends I trust what is going on people now what has happened and what I am doing to get out of the situation. I also am not seeking pity believe me on that. I don't want pity I seriously want to get out of the circle of crap and get on with life and try to be happy for once. I have a friend staying here now that will not let my husband touch me in anyway or he will take him down.. It is a good friend of both of ours and he knows what is going on as well. For right this moment I am safe and I won't take a place a shelter that someone else may need more then me at the moment. I am not saying that I am taking what happened lightly either I am saying that this circle has gone on for a long while so I know how it works. that is not to say that it can t change but I am praying that God protects me until I am can finish my things to be able t leave safely.