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Well actually I was more of "venting" a bit I have about 1 more week before I can at least turn in an application for an apartment to hopefully move out from my relatives and satan is pulling out all the stops to keep me trapped here with "routine" and "past hauntings"(my mind works like an infinite random wheel just a mention of something and I'll remember something including things I really don't want to be thinking about, sometimes such things will persistently stay in my mind no matter if I think of something else even religious songs or shows sometimes only a surprise of some kind will be enough to get my mind to finally stop have a thought lingering)
as well as a barrage of crazy,stressful,antics from my relatives,it's been a nightmare for sometime now I really believe now that this so called "home" is really the house of satan because only when I come back from work or church to my current house do I feel an overwhelming out pour of "evil influence".
Seriously it's like a whole bunch of abominable thoughts drill right into my mind,or I feel totally different like irritable,overly tired,zoned out, and it's all driving me nuts and worst of all it's cutting down my "work for God" and even "enthusiasm" for his word as if I'm being pushed backwards to the past when I wasn't so enthused for God yet I still am determined to keep going forward for him,I don't know if all this makes sense but well nothing lately has been easy to make sense of ,but what I feel I have to do is get out on my own and then I feel my work for God/Jesus will "truly start" Christian Chat has and still is a great "stress reliever" and sort of a "shield" from satan's evils helping me to "calm down" at times or "tune out" evil influences and rantings and I hope and pray that Christian Chat will continue to be blessed and continue to be a blessing to others and that from what I've learned here that it will help me "witness" in person and remain somewhat of a "church"/home" for me to come to when I feel I don't have one or can't get one.
as well as a barrage of crazy,stressful,antics from my relatives,it's been a nightmare for sometime now I really believe now that this so called "home" is really the house of satan because only when I come back from work or church to my current house do I feel an overwhelming out pour of "evil influence".
Seriously it's like a whole bunch of abominable thoughts drill right into my mind,or I feel totally different like irritable,overly tired,zoned out, and it's all driving me nuts and worst of all it's cutting down my "work for God" and even "enthusiasm" for his word as if I'm being pushed backwards to the past when I wasn't so enthused for God yet I still am determined to keep going forward for him,I don't know if all this makes sense but well nothing lately has been easy to make sense of ,but what I feel I have to do is get out on my own and then I feel my work for God/Jesus will "truly start" Christian Chat has and still is a great "stress reliever" and sort of a "shield" from satan's evils helping me to "calm down" at times or "tune out" evil influences and rantings and I hope and pray that Christian Chat will continue to be blessed and continue to be a blessing to others and that from what I've learned here that it will help me "witness" in person and remain somewhat of a "church"/home" for me to come to when I feel I don't have one or can't get one.
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And if so... I'd like a car for Christmas. 
