I probably wouldn’t describe myself as a happy Christian.
Sometimes even, when I am in the company of over-cheered people I feel like sending them to other room. Go and be joyful elsewhere ... preferable behind the closed door.
Sometimes it feels like their happiness and joy is fake. Sometimes it feels fresh and honest and it helps me a lot.
Is it ok for Christian to not to be happy? Is it normal for Christian to not think positively? After what Jesus did for me? Us?
It might be normal, according to research study (NSF, 2005) we have mostly negative thoughts. Not just Christians, but in general. The average person has about 12,000 to 60,000 thoughts per day. Of those, 80% are negative and 95% are exactly the same repetitive thoughts as the day before and about 80% are negative.
And yes, yes we all know about that verse how we can be transformed by the renewing of our mind.
But this small facts about human (negative) mindset helped me a lot.
It is not just me, all of us tends to think negatively from time to time. Or every day. That’s how we are. Sometimes we don feel happy, but we do feel low, even very low. Sometimes we can’t stand our life.
And I found out that I am in the good company of strong biblical characters and God’s men and women as well, who felt the same.
Rebekah, Isaac’s wife:
"I’m disgusted with living because of these Hittite women. If Jacob takes a wife from among the women of this land, from Hittite women like these, my life will not be worth living."
Prophet Elijah:
"He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. ‘I have had enough, Lord,’ he said. ‘Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors."
King Solomon:
"Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless
… the day of death is better than the day of birth.."
John Calvin (father of the Reformation) said in his dying hour:
“All that I have done has been of no value. The wicked will gladly seize on the word. But I repeat it again, all that I have done is of no value.”
David Livingston, pathfinder of mission in Africa in the beginning of 19th century, anti-slavery campaigner. After 23 years of his faithful work his biographer writes (paraphrase):
The only thing I have achieved is, that I made Africa more visible for slave trade. My mission even after 23 years doesn't bring any fruits, all of my work is in vain.
George Bowen, great missionary of 19th century, born in USA gave up all of his fortune, everything he owned and went to India (Bombay) where he lived in poorest district in poverty and became a street preacher. He was every day on the streets preaching and after more than 40 years of preaching he didn’t record anyone who would come to Jesus. No one.
So, when he was near to end of his life, he said (paraphrase):
I am the most miserable and unusable man in the whole church. It seems that God enjoys shattering me with disappointments and failures. I sympathize with Job and I understand Elijah. All of my effort was totally in vain.
His influence and work were recognized only after he died, because after his death many Christians felt calling for missionary work in India and were encouraged by Bowen life.
So far I didn't get further with my thinking about happiness. Feel free to add your drop of wisdom.
Sometimes even, when I am in the company of over-cheered people I feel like sending them to other room. Go and be joyful elsewhere ... preferable behind the closed door.
Sometimes it feels like their happiness and joy is fake. Sometimes it feels fresh and honest and it helps me a lot.
Is it ok for Christian to not to be happy? Is it normal for Christian to not think positively? After what Jesus did for me? Us?
It might be normal, according to research study (NSF, 2005) we have mostly negative thoughts. Not just Christians, but in general. The average person has about 12,000 to 60,000 thoughts per day. Of those, 80% are negative and 95% are exactly the same repetitive thoughts as the day before and about 80% are negative.
And yes, yes we all know about that verse how we can be transformed by the renewing of our mind.
But this small facts about human (negative) mindset helped me a lot.
It is not just me, all of us tends to think negatively from time to time. Or every day. That’s how we are. Sometimes we don feel happy, but we do feel low, even very low. Sometimes we can’t stand our life.
And I found out that I am in the good company of strong biblical characters and God’s men and women as well, who felt the same.
Rebekah, Isaac’s wife:
"I’m disgusted with living because of these Hittite women. If Jacob takes a wife from among the women of this land, from Hittite women like these, my life will not be worth living."
Prophet Elijah:
"He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. ‘I have had enough, Lord,’ he said. ‘Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors."
King Solomon:
"Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless
… the day of death is better than the day of birth.."
John Calvin (father of the Reformation) said in his dying hour:
“All that I have done has been of no value. The wicked will gladly seize on the word. But I repeat it again, all that I have done is of no value.”
David Livingston, pathfinder of mission in Africa in the beginning of 19th century, anti-slavery campaigner. After 23 years of his faithful work his biographer writes (paraphrase):
The only thing I have achieved is, that I made Africa more visible for slave trade. My mission even after 23 years doesn't bring any fruits, all of my work is in vain.
George Bowen, great missionary of 19th century, born in USA gave up all of his fortune, everything he owned and went to India (Bombay) where he lived in poorest district in poverty and became a street preacher. He was every day on the streets preaching and after more than 40 years of preaching he didn’t record anyone who would come to Jesus. No one.
So, when he was near to end of his life, he said (paraphrase):
I am the most miserable and unusable man in the whole church. It seems that God enjoys shattering me with disappointments and failures. I sympathize with Job and I understand Elijah. All of my effort was totally in vain.
His influence and work were recognized only after he died, because after his death many Christians felt calling for missionary work in India and were encouraged by Bowen life.
So far I didn't get further with my thinking about happiness. Feel free to add your drop of wisdom.
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