Hi, so I'm a man 32 years old living in North carolina in USA. I am currently living with my girlfriend and her two children. We recently moved in together and are creating a happy home together. We plan to get married when we have the money and if given the chance I will adopt her children as my own. We've not been dating that long but we took the leap to start living together because it worked better because I work 12 hour shifts at night and she works 9 to 5 daily and some at night as well. We both work alot but we like to spend some if not all of my days off together since she has an easier schedule than mine. I love her and her children as well. We have plans to make more children when we have more money and room. Things are special to me about this relationship because this is a relationship promised to me by God. Truthfully my life has been a little rough, I'm sure there are people who have had a rougher life but mine for me has been hard and painful. I have been faithful to my lord the entire time and have sought his council whenever I felt unsure or too sure as to what to do. I have always tried to do the right thing whenever possible and converse with my lord daily. He sometimes gives me tasks to do and I do my best to do them without hesitation. Recently he had me forgive my father and apologize for the angry words I spoke to him. Despite the fact that there is still hurt that my dad left in my heart that I will never get rid of I push to create new ground regardless of my feelings to start a better relationship because it is my lord's will.
I told you that to tell you this, I love my girlfriend very much but she worries me sometimes. We have only been together a month or two and probably the only reason I moved in with her is because the lord told me to. I do love her and her children very much but honestly if it had been just me and her that decided to move in together I would not have done it because we haven't known each other very long. If that had been the case I doubt our relationship would have gone much farther as we wouldn't have had much time to spend together; also I may have gotten a different job and moved causing us to break-up out of circumstance. So this is a relationship partly of the lord's making. I have no real problems with her or her kids. In fact we did actually make love just a couple days ago. My problem is that she actually lied to me, she told me that a friend she spent alot of time with was gay. He's bisexual. The truth is they used to date and she still hangs out with him now and then. She told me this cuz she said I get jealous and that I would forbid her from going to see him. We had a big fight before she got to explain because the thought of someone I love lying to me destroyed me. I also suspected this due to clues that had been showing up via her and her children. Now she explained that she doesn't want to be with him anymore because he doesn't really care that much about her and would love his child more than hers. I have no children and have shown I would love her children and our children the same regardless of which they were. Now under normal circumstances I would have tried to get out of this apartment simply because she lied to me. I don't feel that she has or is being unfaithful I just don't like lies and not knowing something. However this is the lord's gift to me and bad things happen to those who spurn the lord's gifts. I spoke with the lord in my heart and he said two simple words "have faith", while saying little he once again speaks volumes. He tells me to have faith in him my girlfriend and myself as a man. While it is difficult to live having only my faith and a spouse who may or may not be lying to me. The hardest part about it is I have a job with much downtime but also a 12 hr schedule. Sometimes I may even be spending that time entirely alone. Those are the times fear and doubt creep up on me and I get ideas and things to say and do that may provide insight but will also hurt the relationship. But sometimes my faith is manually restored. Today I prayed over my fortune cookie from dinner and asked for guidance. Once again the paper said "faith" though I am still bothered that I don't know what to do I can live knowing that my ultimate reward is not done yet. Once again I am reaffirmed that I am speaking with the lord and he still has a plan for me. Well I was going to ask what I should do but I feel successfully purged now soo...I have my mind right, since my question was answered. What would you do in my situation?
I told you that to tell you this, I love my girlfriend very much but she worries me sometimes. We have only been together a month or two and probably the only reason I moved in with her is because the lord told me to. I do love her and her children very much but honestly if it had been just me and her that decided to move in together I would not have done it because we haven't known each other very long. If that had been the case I doubt our relationship would have gone much farther as we wouldn't have had much time to spend together; also I may have gotten a different job and moved causing us to break-up out of circumstance. So this is a relationship partly of the lord's making. I have no real problems with her or her kids. In fact we did actually make love just a couple days ago. My problem is that she actually lied to me, she told me that a friend she spent alot of time with was gay. He's bisexual. The truth is they used to date and she still hangs out with him now and then. She told me this cuz she said I get jealous and that I would forbid her from going to see him. We had a big fight before she got to explain because the thought of someone I love lying to me destroyed me. I also suspected this due to clues that had been showing up via her and her children. Now she explained that she doesn't want to be with him anymore because he doesn't really care that much about her and would love his child more than hers. I have no children and have shown I would love her children and our children the same regardless of which they were. Now under normal circumstances I would have tried to get out of this apartment simply because she lied to me. I don't feel that she has or is being unfaithful I just don't like lies and not knowing something. However this is the lord's gift to me and bad things happen to those who spurn the lord's gifts. I spoke with the lord in my heart and he said two simple words "have faith", while saying little he once again speaks volumes. He tells me to have faith in him my girlfriend and myself as a man. While it is difficult to live having only my faith and a spouse who may or may not be lying to me. The hardest part about it is I have a job with much downtime but also a 12 hr schedule. Sometimes I may even be spending that time entirely alone. Those are the times fear and doubt creep up on me and I get ideas and things to say and do that may provide insight but will also hurt the relationship. But sometimes my faith is manually restored. Today I prayed over my fortune cookie from dinner and asked for guidance. Once again the paper said "faith" though I am still bothered that I don't know what to do I can live knowing that my ultimate reward is not done yet. Once again I am reaffirmed that I am speaking with the lord and he still has a plan for me. Well I was going to ask what I should do but I feel successfully purged now soo...I have my mind right, since my question was answered. What would you do in my situation?
