First off all, Hello and thanks for posting your statement

. I see you have been a member for longer than I, but show still as a new member, so welcome back then sounds like might be in order, so if that's the case, welcome back

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Ok. Without context known, I will say this, hopefully it will help. If it is God you don't trust, go to him and be honest, as you didn't by what you wrote here. He would already know, so would not surprise him. Ask him to open your heart to trust him. To Bless you to truly see the things he does daily for you. If it is to trust others, well you can tall to him about that too. Ask him to help you heal. Ask for his Peace and Love to come down about you and that he would hold you close. To bring trust worthy people into your life, that you may learn and see what it looks like. And to not push away those same worthy people through the hurt you have indured.
We all have choices daily. Sometimes we tend to hold onto those things, to try and protect ourselves. But, we need to rely on God and to see there is both kind of people.
I truly hope God Blesses you to rely on his Love most of all and that this helps you to steer your boat back to him in this. There is much less wind resistance when your ship is pointed in the direction of the most High and Loving Father ABBA that loves you (and us all) more then you could possibly know.
Feel free to reach out to chat anytime, get back to you as soon as I can

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