You are very kind
I do spend a great deal of time here, as online apologetics has been a large part of my life for many years now
I have been very fortunate in this regard also, for I was allowed to be online while at my job when there was nothing else to do, and so during this COVID thing, with self-isolating, even though I have been laid off work since mid March, my life has not changed a great deal, as I am doing the same thing I have done, which is being here, and also designing panels for Scripture verses. Oh, I started doing that not quite three years ago, though I have "played " with images for longer than that, and even there can see God's hand in this, for I have been employed in the photofinishing industry for the last 44 years, and even that, since it was the only thing I knew I wanted to do professionally, and started my first job on the very day of my 21st birthday, I have always considered that a gift as well God is good!
Though I must admit, it takes a lot of energy to be here, and I am running a bit low on that these days, having been diagnosed with cancer in late February, and undergoing major surgery for it mid August. But God is good and I praise the Lord!
You are someone who is lighting up people's lives. You should do your best to continue to reach out to women. They need a "Sarah" in their lives, especially young ones who have little elder guidance. It is the elders than provide wisdom. Have a chatroom or email available for them. Praise G-d that He loves you so much!!!
I don't need to know if you don't want to share, but I'll tell you something. G-d runs on measure for measure (but all for our Good even if we don't see it). So if I bumped my foot, I probably did something wrong with my foot to deserve it, or if someone yelled at me, it's probably because I yelled at someone etc. That being said, depending where this virus is, maybe it would be good to deeply reflect what you might have done with this part of the body and repent heavily on this. If it is not possible to reverse what has been done...then next best option is to teach others who not to do the same sin.
The best biblical proof I can give is the life of Cain. Cain is the very first person to actually repent and own up to his mistake. Adam and Eve did not, they blamed someone else. Then the bible emphasizes on the details of Cain's life. Since he murdered and cannot undo it, what did he do? He built "cities". He was a man trying to repair relationships by building them and growing communities where strife between brothers wouldn't occur. So this teaches us that there is a way and look, G-d protected Him when he was remorseful.
I hope this helps!