I'm terribly sorry to hear of your lack of discernment.
Dispensationalism is Destroyed by the Literal Hermeneutic
I left dispensationalism when I began to see the dispensationalist teachings clearly contradicted by the Scriptures. I must only give the references for those interested to read for themselves.
Is Israel still awaiting possession of all the land promised to Abraham?
Josh. 21:43-45; 23:14-16; Ex. 23:27-30; Num. 34:1-12; 1 Kgs. 4:20-21; 2 Chron. 9:22-28; Neh. 9:23-24; 2 Sam. 5:6-10
Jewish Theocracy is ended
Matt. 21:43; Luke 20:16; John 4:21, 23
There is one people of God, not two, Old Covenent Israel continuing in the New Covenant Israel
Rom. 10:12, 13; Eph. 2:15, 16; Col. 3:11; 1 Cor. 12:13; Gal. 3:7-9; Phil. 3:3; Rom. 2:28, 29
The church is the continuation of Israel, God's people
1 Pet. 2:9, 10 compared to OT Ex.19:6; Deut. 7:6; Isa. 61:6; Heb. 18, 2-24; Gal 6:15, 16 (REB, Weymouth, Williams, Phillips, CEV: these understand the word "and" in the word for word translations)
Old Testament prophesies applied to the church in the New Testament
2 Sam. 7:12; Psa.132:11 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Acts 2:30, 31
Joel 2:28; >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Acts 2:16, 17
Zech. 12:9, 10 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> John 19:36, 37
Amos 9:11, 12 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Acts 15:13-16
Jer. 31:31, 33 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Heb. 8:1, 4, 6-8
Mal. 4:5-6 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Luke 1:17; Matt. 11:13, 14
Also: Acts 3:24, 25; 1 Pet. 1:10-12
Do 'kingdom of heaven' and 'kingdom of God' refer to two different kingdom?
(Using a harmony of the gospels and then the statement of Jesus)
Matt. 4:17, 23 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Mark 1:14, 15
Matt. 5:3 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Luke 6:20
Matt. 8:11, 12 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Luke 13:28, 29
Matt. 13:11 >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Mark 4:11
Jesus used the two terms interchangeably - Matt. 19:23-24
The kingdom came with Jesus and has been growing ever since, kingdom is now
Matt. 4:17; 12:28; 16:28; Mark 1:15; Luke 11:20; 17:20, 21; Col. 1:13;
Christ is king now!
Acts 2:30-36; Rev 1:5; 1 Tim. 6:15; Matt. 2:2; John 1:49; 12:14-16;
Christ reigns now!
1 Pet. 3:22; Matt 28:18; Eph. 1:20, 21; Phil. 2:9, 10
Christians are a new creation and reign now
Rom. 5:17; 8:16, 17; Eph. 2:6; 2 Cor. 5:17
Satan is bound now
John 12:27, 31; 16:11; Matt. 12:28, 29; Heb. 2:14; Luke 10:17,18; Col. 2:14, 15;
Time of second coming is known only to God and we are NOT given signs to know when
Matt. 24:36, 42-44; Rev. 16:15, 16; Acts 1:7; 1 Thess. 5:1, 2
There are just a few of the errors found in dispensationalism that the Scriptures refute. There have always been premillennials, amillennials and postmillennials among good men of God in history. Dispensationalism modernist, and is a perversion of historic premillennialism.