Many of us think it is best to just get alone with God and read our Bible. God says He will help us understand if we ask Him to.
Matthew 11:25
“At that time Jesus answered and said, I thank thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because thou hast hid these things from the wise and prudent, and hast revealed them unto babes.”
Many who appear to be wise are blind. He reveals himself to the meek and humble ones.
Just remember that He loves you. If you don't have assurance of salvation, just talk to Him directly about it. Jesus wants to be our friend as well as Lord and Savior.
Revelation 3:20
“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”
God bless you and give you peace and assurance.