It does make sense. I will talk to my pastor about this so please have patience until I have the opportunity. I am going through and writing questions down so can I learn. This is something I would like to talk about and write down some scriptures for support. I do know that blaspheming the holy Spirit is an unforgivable sin. But I have always heard that sin is sin no matter how we think somethings bad on a degree table, the lord says sin is sin and can't look at sin.
No worries.
We all have questions when we continue learning. Just this morning I was reminded of that when I had a different question. Instead of my pastor, I took it to the Author of the book. I asked Him the answer and immediately flipped back a few pages and He brought my eyes exactly to the answer. I thanked Him and wrote down the reference and answer for future reminders the next time I read it. It's not always so easy or quick to get the answers, but if I seek I'll find and ask it shall be given unto me.
When my pastors would teach/ preach, I'd often take notes like you. Then rather than taking their word for it, I would study on my own time and beg God for the answers and understanding. He always came through.
Sometimes my pastor was right and sometimes wrong. When he was found to be wrong on major doctrines and continued to mis- teach basics that he should have learned first time reading through the Bible, guess what?
I sought out a pastor who was correct on the basics and where I could be spiritually fed. I eventually found what I was looking for.
Paul even expected that of the Galatians in chapter 1. He had established churches in their region and he wanted them to check out his teaching with the books of the Bible they already had.
I was reading this and a passage came to mind. Where was it? I did not know.
I asked the Author and He brought me to the verse He gave us without using a search function on the computer. He took me to Acts 17:11
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These were more noble than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness of mind, and searched the scriptures daily, whether those things were so. "
Thessalonica was open to the gospel. However, those in Berea were even moreso. They didn't take the apostles word for the truth until they checked it out with their Bibles.
We should honor and respect our pastors.
You already know what your pastor teaches about these subjects. You know what I believe too, but don't take my word for it.
May I suggest rather than asking for his explanation, simply know that he too is imperfect and rather go directly to the Author and plead with Him for His answer.
I think He will provide the correct one and bless you for seeking, for asking.
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