That is laughable to say they were no other options but to break the rules. No, there were other options, and you are just being dishonest to pretend otherwise, and then dress it up in the love of Jesus. Love considers the feelings of the other person. You seem always more concerned with your own.
That is why one day you can be lewdly and lasciviously flirting with a woman, defend it as humor despite how inappropriate it is for a Christian man to publicly speak on a Christian chat site that way to a Christian woman he knows is married, then weeks later slam that same woman for being salacious simply because she posted a picture of eyes blinking while she is waiting for a response. Then again weeks after that you are exclaiming that you do not understand why you are not united in your love of Jesus with such a person. You are all over the place in your approach to people and then blame others when they do not consistently receive you with open arms.
In the meantime you came to what looked like some profound realizations about speaking privately with married women, publicly posted about it, but have now -as of yesterday- reversed your opinion again to continue to publicly invite PMs from that same married woman. I wonder what God sees when he looks at the treachery and deceptions of your heart. I know He understands it better than I do. I have seen much beauty in you despite them, but whenever I tried to see certain things you just got mean and deliberately hurt me, causing separation, turmoil, and strife, while you smoothly make excuses for breaking the rules, and talk about peace. God sees all that, too.
Wow, this is the strangest attack I've ever seen, and you seem like you've been stalking me for weeks and storing up hatred, throwing personal vendettas into public threads, and taking your misconceptions about me to a very twisted level of self-persecution.
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I have not read your last three pm's to me, because the ones before that had so much hatred in them it was mind-boggling, and your version of the persecutions you make up in your mind and blame on me is more negativity than I need, even after replying kindly to you, you heaped more on, so I haven't opened or read the last three, and now I'm so glad I didn't.
I had invited you to call again, you didn't. Then you publicly said to tell my mom and dad you said hi. I politely and gladly let you know it would be fine for you to call them anytime and talk to them, that they would welcome that, and in the meantime I would tell them hi, no different than when I ask you to tell your daughter I said hi all the time.
But right after that you got all nasty and I was like, '*where in the world is she coming up with THIS from now*'?!
I came back from a wonderful, joy-filled retreat last weekend, a part of which was lifting up this website in prayer and thanksgiving, and praying all good things for many by name with joy, and you certainly were included in that.
I hadn't done much posting, but I did share with some,
both publicly and in pm, the wonderful time in the Lord had by all,
and I had some really nice exchanges here with some ppl I really cherish as brothers and sisters in Christ,
and as I've tried hard to grow in grace and friendship here, and feeling really good and hope-filled about alot of things, you greeted me with a tirade of negativity and stored up ammunition and hatred,
much like you've displayed again here,
that nearly erased all the good that was experienced over the weekend,
but I didn't want to be brought down this time,
and had to fight it off and allow the joy of the Lord be my strength,
something that hasn't come easy in my life,
as you know my past and lengthy battles with depression.
But hopefully the Lord is leading me to have victory over that enemy, thanks in many ways to the grace and friendship of christians, including many here who express forgiveness and grace, love and joy in the spirit, sharing the blessings, and yes, (one may even be married, (the horror), but maybe we have an understanding now and there's no harm, okay? And I'm not exactly sure who you're referring to at this point, but that's totally uncalled for anyway)
But, NONE of this belongs on a public thread,
and none of the hatred you have for me is called for or christian,
and I apologize to this threads OP, and anyone else reading,
please know I had no intentions for this here.
Please...magenta......please listen...you have my phone number, my invitation to call still stands, my hand of friendship still, and ALWAYS will extend to you, as I've told you dozens of times.....but I can't help it if you don't want that.....I've told you how I felt before and what I hoped for moving forward, but the negativity and storing up of wrath from weeks and months past, and perhaps from years before, idk, to take out and fling at me anytime isn't acceptable anymore.
And we BOTH deserve better, so does everyone here, and so does our Lord and Saviour.
Yes, anyone may pm me, for any reason, and I know I've told you that, but I didn't read the last two, and now three I see from you, because of the heaviness you put on my heart.
There's already so much negativity and hatred in the world, and I experienced so much of it in my life, I really need the grace of God and to start believing in the Good things He has in store......
and that's always been a battle for me, to believe that there could be ANY good thing for me.....I can believe it for you and everyone else, but I have a hard time believing it for myself.....
but I have to allow the goodness and mercy and love of God into my life, and I've been trying very hard to do that, despite myself and so much negativity that comes from MANY sources. I don't need more of that and neither do you, nor do our brothers and sisters on this site.
So please, no more public tirades, but please call me if you want.
My phone line and my friendship is always, always, always open to you.
Please know that.
God bless you in love and peace, sincerely in Christ. {♡}
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