Suicidal Thoughts & Attempts-- Loss of Loved Ones to Suicide
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Why do you want your life to end? Like blue said, life is our Lord's gift to us.
Also, you have others that will miss you when you are gone. You have a son, correct? He will miss his daddy. He needs you to grow up, to look up to you. I love my daddy. If you take your life, you will be thinking only of yourself, not those you leave behind. They love you. I know life isn't fair at times. But the Lord is always here with us. We just have to put our faith in him.
Don't pray for your death, John. The living needs you. You are loved here. Remember that
Also, you have others that will miss you when you are gone. You have a son, correct? He will miss his daddy. He needs you to grow up, to look up to you. I love my daddy. If you take your life, you will be thinking only of yourself, not those you leave behind. They love you. I know life isn't fair at times. But the Lord is always here with us. We just have to put our faith in him.
Don't pray for your death, John. The living needs you. You are loved here. Remember that
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Sometimes the only thing we can do is cry out to Jesus,but the thing as being a child,and come across adversity,it can start them thinking negative,and they stay on that track of thinking,and it gets worse,and worse,and kids are cruel to begin with,but when they sense you have low self esteem,for that negative thinking that you have,they will chime in with cruel remarks,for a person is an easy target that way,and having a parent that a child views as abusive does not help,for a child will think if my own parent treats me bad,how must other people think about me.
But I say do not let other people's problems become your problems,but as a child you cannot sense that,and there was a movie called Sybil,with Sally Fields,that was abused as a child,and she developed many personalities as a way to cope with it,so when a kid feels abused,or because they are on the shy side,and their parents are on them,as well as kids at school,it can give them a negative attitude,but at thank God you are past that.
But like I said sometimes that the only thing we can do is cry out to Jesus,and a child cannot always see things we see as an adult,which I wish they could,and realize that sometimes people are cruel,even if it is their own parent,and say,I will not let this bother me,for they are the one with the problem,and I will not let is get me down to feel bad about myself,but too bad as a child,especially when young they do not come to that realization,so it depends on how old the child is,for the younger at dealing with abuse,and ridicule,will worsen the situation,compared to if they older,and suffer it,for it may give them a little low self esteem,but not as harmful,and they can escape it easier.
Once a child gets to thinking negative,the younger they are the worse it will be,and they had so many more years on that negative track,compared to an older child,but no matter what Jesus will take everything away,and if we do happen to suffer physical ailments,one thing for sure is our mind will at least be right,for God gives us power,love,and a sound mind.
But I say do not let other people's problems become your problems,but as a child you cannot sense that,and there was a movie called Sybil,with Sally Fields,that was abused as a child,and she developed many personalities as a way to cope with it,so when a kid feels abused,or because they are on the shy side,and their parents are on them,as well as kids at school,it can give them a negative attitude,but at thank God you are past that.
But like I said sometimes that the only thing we can do is cry out to Jesus,and a child cannot always see things we see as an adult,which I wish they could,and realize that sometimes people are cruel,even if it is their own parent,and say,I will not let this bother me,for they are the one with the problem,and I will not let is get me down to feel bad about myself,but too bad as a child,especially when young they do not come to that realization,so it depends on how old the child is,for the younger at dealing with abuse,and ridicule,will worsen the situation,compared to if they older,and suffer it,for it may give them a little low self esteem,but not as harmful,and they can escape it easier.
Once a child gets to thinking negative,the younger they are the worse it will be,and they had so many more years on that negative track,compared to an older child,but no matter what Jesus will take everything away,and if we do happen to suffer physical ailments,one thing for sure is our mind will at least be right,for God gives us power,love,and a sound mind.
There was a great thread a few months ago, on people who are suffering from suicidal thoughts that you might find constructive. I contributed a couple of times regarding your concern about ideas to end your own life, they might give you some helpful perspective:
Suicide Unpardonable ? or RCC Nonsense?
http://christianchat.com/bible-disc...-unpardonable-rcc-nonsense-4.html#post2737344
Despite the constant influx of messages in society that tell us otherwise, it's not wrong to feel the weakness that you do. It's just a sign that you've allowed the enemy to really overtake your mind and in turn, your life. As Christians however, we have the gospel of the good news of the Lord Jesus Christ.
As the saying goes: Suicide only appears like an option when the devil has hidden all your other options. Allow the Bible to open your eyes.
He can step in and make change, the moment we give our heart to Him and invite Him into our lives. Your thoughts are totally understandable, but I must stress that you need to combat them with the word of the Lord. Where there is life, there is hope, and that is exactly the beautiful gift that Jesus gave to us when He died on the cross.
You're here on earth for a reason. We all are. If God didn't have a reason for us to be here, He'd take us away right now. However, God doesn't make any mistakes. When He made you, He did it with a specific plan in mind. Giving you unique talents and abilities that no one earth posses quite the same way you do. Often times when I'm on the job and i'm doing something that i think is mundane, God will say to me "everything you do, every little minor thing, think of a brain surgeon in operation, think of the president of a country and take that task to immaculate precision because it's JUST as important to me!"
I pray that these messages provide you with some kind of deliverance with your battle against the enemy, i'll leave you with a scripture:
But you will not need to fight! Take your places; stand quietly and see the incredible rescue operation God will perform for you, Oh people of Judah and Jerusalem! Don’t be afraid or discouraged! Go out there tomorrow, for the Lord is with you! 2 Chronicles 20:17
Suicide Unpardonable ? or RCC Nonsense?
http://christianchat.com/bible-disc...-unpardonable-rcc-nonsense-4.html#post2737344
Despite the constant influx of messages in society that tell us otherwise, it's not wrong to feel the weakness that you do. It's just a sign that you've allowed the enemy to really overtake your mind and in turn, your life. As Christians however, we have the gospel of the good news of the Lord Jesus Christ.
As the saying goes: Suicide only appears like an option when the devil has hidden all your other options. Allow the Bible to open your eyes.
He can step in and make change, the moment we give our heart to Him and invite Him into our lives. Your thoughts are totally understandable, but I must stress that you need to combat them with the word of the Lord. Where there is life, there is hope, and that is exactly the beautiful gift that Jesus gave to us when He died on the cross.
You're here on earth for a reason. We all are. If God didn't have a reason for us to be here, He'd take us away right now. However, God doesn't make any mistakes. When He made you, He did it with a specific plan in mind. Giving you unique talents and abilities that no one earth posses quite the same way you do. Often times when I'm on the job and i'm doing something that i think is mundane, God will say to me "everything you do, every little minor thing, think of a brain surgeon in operation, think of the president of a country and take that task to immaculate precision because it's JUST as important to me!"
I pray that these messages provide you with some kind of deliverance with your battle against the enemy, i'll leave you with a scripture:
But you will not need to fight! Take your places; stand quietly and see the incredible rescue operation God will perform for you, Oh people of Judah and Jerusalem! Don’t be afraid or discouraged! Go out there tomorrow, for the Lord is with you! 2 Chronicles 20:17
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I am happy you made it through those difficult years of your life from your childhood. You broke free and you let God open your heart to see the positive side of your life. Your testimony is truly amazing and even putting the helpful advice to do things to encourage people to uplift their spirits is amazing. Many people will read your story and realize that is it not the end of the world for them and that they are truly important no matter what people say.
DISCLAIMER: Long post alert, but please read it because this is an important issue that many people on here are dealing with right now!!
Hi everyone,
Since a very young age, I have struggled with major depression and suicidal thoughts and attempts. I am writing my story today in hopes that it will help those of you who are feeling this way to find inspiration and courage, and give you the strength to never give up. My very first attempt was around 11 or 12 years old, give or take a year or two either way, and my method of suicide was a pair of my mother's sewing scissors. It was the middle of the night, and I went to her sewing room and got the scissors. My intent was to stab myself in the stomach with them, and hopefully bleed to death. However, a few things deterred my attempt. I was a young child, and I've always been unable to tolerate pain of any kind. Needless to say, I chickened out and put my mother's scissors back in her sewing room.
Thus began a lifetime of suicidal thoughts, more than one tried (and failed) attempts. Many of you have read my 3 other threads detailing my battles with depression, cancer, and disabilities. For those who have'nt, they can all be found in the Miscellaneous forum, within the first few pages. Please read them and you will better understand why I have felt this way for most of my life.
The titles of the threads are: "Depression: A Ladybug's True Story of Dark vs. Light".."Disabilities: How do you cope with yours?"..and "blue_ladybug's uterine cancer battle." I hope my battles will strengthen those of you who read, and have read them.
I grew up having very few friends. I was a very anti-social child, meaning I much preferred to go off alone rather than spend time with other people. To this day, I still prefer my own company to that of others. At a very young age, I developed epilepsy. From then on it was a continuous cycle of multiple grand mal and petit mal seizures every single day, and a million switches from one med to another. Some made me gain weight, some made me sleepy. I went from being a happy 5-year old, then an unhappy kid, to a terribly depressed and anti-social teenager. A combination of life, epilepsy, being teased by friends for certain things, and mean and rude comments by my mother, fueled my suicidal mindset. I HATED high school with a passion. Other kids made fun of me. They thought I was strange because I would have grand mal seizures in front of them and they did'nt understand why. I've come to learn that people mock what they dont understand, and while none of them teased me about my seizures, they did tease me about other things. All my life my mom has called me weird, odd, and strange. She had an unhappy childhood of her own, and took it out on her own kids. My sisters and brother are all several years older than me, so I grew up without playmates, and pretty much as an only child. However, my mother was, and still is, both mentally and verbally abusive, and she never missed a chance to show me how disappointed she was in me, and what a failure she thought I was. She never actually called me a failure, but her attitude left no room for doubt.
Fast-forward a couple of years to age 21. I moved into my very first apartment. Though I had grown up quiet and shy, once I was on my own, I turned into a bit of a wild child, and started hanging out with all the wrong people. Druggies for the most part, though I have never done drugs in my entire lifetime. When I was 23, one of the guys I met came to my house one night. He grabbed me and tied me to the bed, gagged me and raped me. That event was the catalyst to the suicidal thoughts that I've had ever since 1993, when the rape occurred. Afterwards, I withdrew even more from society, like a turtle pulling its head into its shell to protect myself. I was sure if I went out in public, that somehow people would be able to tell that I'd been raped. I have tried several different ways of killing myself: pills, cutting, scissors and butcher knife. On my part, they were half-hearted attempts. One part of me wanted to die, the other part was scared to die. I have been a christian all my life, and I was raised to believe that if a person commits suicide, they go to hell. That fact is why I'm alive today. I dont want to go to hell!! To those of you suffering right now, I know how it feels. I have stood in that dark valley of despair. I have felt so low that no one could possibly help me. I know how it feels to think no one cares, I'd be better off dead, no one loves me and will help me.
I have been through hell in my lifetime, dealing with different things that have happened to me. Each time I tried to rely on God, even when it seemed like he had given up on me also. I prayed for relief from these feelings and thoughts, but they still constantly ran through my mind. A few years ago, everything collided at once. I was having problems with my mother and sister, I had a very bad flea infestation in my house that I could not get rid of, and just a variety of things hit me all at once. I almost had a mental breakdown and it was then that I realized I needed help. Not pills or counselors. The help I needed could only come from God. So I made a concious effort to do something to lift me out of the dark pit of hell that I was in. I prayed and begged for God's help. He lifted me up out of the darkness and into the light. He gave me suggestions on what I could do to help myself keep a more positive outlook on life. I'm happy to say that I made it through the darkness with God's help, and never once did he forsake me!!
For those of you who feel helpless right now, do what I did. Reach out to Jesus for help. He WILL carry you through the dark places in your life. Do things to give you a more positive outlook on life. Get a hobby, such as knitting or making jewelry. Make a faith book, like I did. Download bible verse wallpaper onto your computer, and use one everyday to lift your spirits. Read your bible and pray. Ask Jesus to help you.
Dont say that it's too late for you, or that Jesus doesnt hear you, and doesnt understand. YES HE DOES!!! Jesus understands pain and anguish better than anyone!! He weeps when he sees us in pain, just as we weep when we think of what he went through on the cross for us.
I made it through the darkness of my suicidal tendencies, into the light of Jesus. You can make it also, I know you can, because I am living proof of it!! No matter what, you cannot give up!! Dont give into the darkness satan has waiting for you. Stand up and fight and you WILL overcome this!! To those of you who have lost someone to suicide, my heart goes out to you, for I have felt that pain also, and lost many friends and family to it.
This is my story, and I'm glad to share it with all of you. I hope it blesses and encourages all who read it. My mail inbox is always open, so please pm me anytime if you feel suicidal and want to talk. God bless you all.
Hi everyone,
Since a very young age, I have struggled with major depression and suicidal thoughts and attempts. I am writing my story today in hopes that it will help those of you who are feeling this way to find inspiration and courage, and give you the strength to never give up. My very first attempt was around 11 or 12 years old, give or take a year or two either way, and my method of suicide was a pair of my mother's sewing scissors. It was the middle of the night, and I went to her sewing room and got the scissors. My intent was to stab myself in the stomach with them, and hopefully bleed to death. However, a few things deterred my attempt. I was a young child, and I've always been unable to tolerate pain of any kind. Needless to say, I chickened out and put my mother's scissors back in her sewing room.
Thus began a lifetime of suicidal thoughts, more than one tried (and failed) attempts. Many of you have read my 3 other threads detailing my battles with depression, cancer, and disabilities. For those who have'nt, they can all be found in the Miscellaneous forum, within the first few pages. Please read them and you will better understand why I have felt this way for most of my life.
The titles of the threads are: "Depression: A Ladybug's True Story of Dark vs. Light".."Disabilities: How do you cope with yours?"..and "blue_ladybug's uterine cancer battle." I hope my battles will strengthen those of you who read, and have read them.
I grew up having very few friends. I was a very anti-social child, meaning I much preferred to go off alone rather than spend time with other people. To this day, I still prefer my own company to that of others. At a very young age, I developed epilepsy. From then on it was a continuous cycle of multiple grand mal and petit mal seizures every single day, and a million switches from one med to another. Some made me gain weight, some made me sleepy. I went from being a happy 5-year old, then an unhappy kid, to a terribly depressed and anti-social teenager. A combination of life, epilepsy, being teased by friends for certain things, and mean and rude comments by my mother, fueled my suicidal mindset. I HATED high school with a passion. Other kids made fun of me. They thought I was strange because I would have grand mal seizures in front of them and they did'nt understand why. I've come to learn that people mock what they dont understand, and while none of them teased me about my seizures, they did tease me about other things. All my life my mom has called me weird, odd, and strange. She had an unhappy childhood of her own, and took it out on her own kids. My sisters and brother are all several years older than me, so I grew up without playmates, and pretty much as an only child. However, my mother was, and still is, both mentally and verbally abusive, and she never missed a chance to show me how disappointed she was in me, and what a failure she thought I was. She never actually called me a failure, but her attitude left no room for doubt.
Fast-forward a couple of years to age 21. I moved into my very first apartment. Though I had grown up quiet and shy, once I was on my own, I turned into a bit of a wild child, and started hanging out with all the wrong people. Druggies for the most part, though I have never done drugs in my entire lifetime. When I was 23, one of the guys I met came to my house one night. He grabbed me and tied me to the bed, gagged me and raped me. That event was the catalyst to the suicidal thoughts that I've had ever since 1993, when the rape occurred. Afterwards, I withdrew even more from society, like a turtle pulling its head into its shell to protect myself. I was sure if I went out in public, that somehow people would be able to tell that I'd been raped. I have tried several different ways of killing myself: pills, cutting, scissors and butcher knife. On my part, they were half-hearted attempts. One part of me wanted to die, the other part was scared to die. I have been a christian all my life, and I was raised to believe that if a person commits suicide, they go to hell. That fact is why I'm alive today. I dont want to go to hell!! To those of you suffering right now, I know how it feels. I have stood in that dark valley of despair. I have felt so low that no one could possibly help me. I know how it feels to think no one cares, I'd be better off dead, no one loves me and will help me.
I have been through hell in my lifetime, dealing with different things that have happened to me. Each time I tried to rely on God, even when it seemed like he had given up on me also. I prayed for relief from these feelings and thoughts, but they still constantly ran through my mind. A few years ago, everything collided at once. I was having problems with my mother and sister, I had a very bad flea infestation in my house that I could not get rid of, and just a variety of things hit me all at once. I almost had a mental breakdown and it was then that I realized I needed help. Not pills or counselors. The help I needed could only come from God. So I made a concious effort to do something to lift me out of the dark pit of hell that I was in. I prayed and begged for God's help. He lifted me up out of the darkness and into the light. He gave me suggestions on what I could do to help myself keep a more positive outlook on life. I'm happy to say that I made it through the darkness with God's help, and never once did he forsake me!!
For those of you who feel helpless right now, do what I did. Reach out to Jesus for help. He WILL carry you through the dark places in your life. Do things to give you a more positive outlook on life. Get a hobby, such as knitting or making jewelry. Make a faith book, like I did. Download bible verse wallpaper onto your computer, and use one everyday to lift your spirits. Read your bible and pray. Ask Jesus to help you.
Dont say that it's too late for you, or that Jesus doesnt hear you, and doesnt understand. YES HE DOES!!! Jesus understands pain and anguish better than anyone!! He weeps when he sees us in pain, just as we weep when we think of what he went through on the cross for us.
I made it through the darkness of my suicidal tendencies, into the light of Jesus. You can make it also, I know you can, because I am living proof of it!! No matter what, you cannot give up!! Dont give into the darkness satan has waiting for you. Stand up and fight and you WILL overcome this!! To those of you who have lost someone to suicide, my heart goes out to you, for I have felt that pain also, and lost many friends and family to it.
This is my story, and I'm glad to share it with all of you. I hope it blesses and encourages all who read it.
My mail inbox is always open, so please pm me anytime if you feel suicidal and want to talk. God bless you all.
I myself tried a crossbow but it malfunctioned so I tried a bottle of Vicodin with 2 bottles of cheap wine. All that happened was if felt dizzy with a horrible headache for about a week. That was about 21 years ago shortly after both of my parents died of cancer 6 weeks apart while I was their caregiver. Obviously the Lord better plans form, now I'm useful, joyous and free praise the Lord.-
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