My then 27 year old son committed suicide 2 years ago in 3 days.
I deal with it by just not thinking about it much, by accepting that this is a fallen world, by having keeping busy with responsibilities, prayer, and by understanding that God is Lord. I am usually generally stoic about it. But of course, at this time of the year I can get sad. I do sometimes feel I missed it, that I was partly responsible. I know I should not, it was his choice. But it is heart wrenching.