the conversation sincerely seems circular.
the other thought i had is if you are having mental issues troubledgirl, refusing to purge contact objects and an obsessive curiosity with the dark is not going to help your situation...
i guess the final question is, do you really want your life to get better and make sense ?
it's not really seeming like it at this point.
you don't seem willing to clean house and clear your mind, heart and spirit of these things and take the necessary steps to do so... i sense a strong underlying desire to continue to explore and be attracted to the dark.
you're either going to take the dangers seriously or continue to get burned, and it only gets worse the longer you play with forces which are more powerful than you.
you'd do yourself good to let go of these things and turn a new leaf, clear your slate and turn to Christ ( the King of kings ) in full surrender for his authority over these powers and principalities that you have no control whatsoever of.
the longer and the further you go into playing with spirituality on your own terms... the occult and witchcraft, the harder and more dangerous it is to get free.
whether or not you are aware of it, most of us responding on your threads have taken a good amount of time and energy to explain to you the dangers which you are exposing yourself. i believe we've also tried to help battle spiritually and put ourselves on the line to help you. you asked for help, and we've given it. good advice has been shared, whether you choose to ignore or implement it is your decision.
i, for one, have had enough experience to know ( not that i'm claiming great knowledge or wisdom, quite the opposite... what we are discussing is a complex and dangerous subject ) that i am risking my own safety and protection by reaching out to you this much. it is making me tired. i'm not designed to engage in spiritual warfare, it isn't my place in the body of Christ. i have tried to help, and i am finished. i'm putting your case in the hands of our Father, our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit from this point forward.
< Matthew 12:43-50 >
“‘When an unclean spirit goes out of a man, he goes through dry places, seeking rest, and finds none.Then he says, ‘I will return to my house from which I came.’ And when he comes, he finds it empty, swept, and put in order.Then he goes and takes with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter and dwell there; and the last state of that man is worse than the first. So shall it also be with this wicked generation.’ While He was still talking to the multitudes, behold, His mother and brothers stood outside, seeking to speak with Him.Then one said to Him, ‘Look, Your mother and Your brothers are standing outside, seeking to speak with You.’ But He answered and said to the one who told Him, ‘Who is My mother and who are My brothers?’And He stretched out His hand toward His disciples and said, ‘Here are My mother and My brothers!For whoever does the will of My Father in heaven is My brother and sister and mother.’”