Widowed

At the end of the author's story, she said many people asked her if she thought the vision was real or not. She would reply that she felt more alive there than here. Listening to it at bedtime is very comforting and if you listen to it a ways in, she reunites with many of her departed loved ones.

It is scriptural that we will see our believing loved ones when we go to heaven. I am sure I will be more alive in heaven as Jesus will wipe our pain and tears (in book of Revelation). There's so much sufferings and pains and disappointments even with our families on earth that I would gladly be with our Lord in heaven. I believe also these are end times season and everyday I always look up to the sky and pray Jesus would come to take me home. While I wait, my prayer is to continue to be steadfast and that the HS will give me strength to endure and give comfort through understanding and caring families and friends.

It's okay to be sad, and it's okay to mourn! In Matthew 5, it specifically states "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.". Everybody is thrown into turmoil, and when something as especially hard as this comes along absolutely NO ONE in their right mind can expect you to just be okay. As Christians, we know our loved ones who have long passed are waiting for us in heaven, but sometimes all we could want is a hug from that person. It's okay! Death is one of the toughest things we as humans go through in life but as Christians we stand to look it straight in the eye, and we fight. We fight, we fight for heaven knowing full well with Jesus by our side that we WILL win. Though everything may seem lost right now, I can imagine your husband up in heaven, standing there, with open arms ready to greet you. All is not lost. He has not lost the battle to cancer, but has won the battle through Christ to heaven. Until the day where you get to meet again, we as your Christian family, are here for you, to fight beside you, to help you look death in the eye and overcome this. You are strong and powerful, just as he was and is today, and you can fight the fight too. You will overcome this. You will overcome death. Because you can. And if it takes mourning to get to your goals, so be it! Whether it be a month, a year a decade, or a lifetime. After all, even Jesus himself mourned throughout the Bible, no? Through God we are stronger than death, no matter in what form it comes, and we will win the battle no matter what it takes.

As far as recovery, there are greif groups in churches, and Christian therapists out there to help fight the pain. If you need to pour into strangers, do it! As a Christian service, this is what it is for. We are here to come together as the body of Christ and to be there each other when we need it.

According to the parable of the fig tree in scripture this is definitely the season of the end times. I commend you also for remaining steadfast continuing to fight the good fight while keeping your eyes on the prize.

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Sushiseggrolls Thank you thank you.... Your encouragement is like a balm to my sorrows... Not many of my christian friends hv said in such way and oh yes I yearn to hv that vision of my hubby waiting eagerly for me in heaven. It teared me to read your post n even to reply..... Whenever he was facing life challenges or even when hes feeling down with our daughters he always tells me "its just you and me hon now, we will go thru this together" and yet now hes not beside me anymore.
Even I dont feel supported when I tried to emote my pain n sorrows to my daughters. They say they r also feeling the same and Im stumped as how to move on. Whenever i suggested we can mourn or cry together they don seem to reciprocate and after a while Im thinking perhaps thats what/how they would say to stop me fr leaning on them?? I feel not only I lost my hubby but my relationship w my family.. Thats one of the hurdles I would cry to God too.
I try to read n find out more about heaven as a coping mechanism and to spur myself to continue otherwise it is such a mental agony to be alone with so many memories of him in my apartment. He is such a handyman around the house. Just like our Lord my hubby is not dead so I talk with him everyday though our conversation is always 1-sided but it brings a little comfort whenever the days are tough. I always ask him to pray to God to allow me to go home now. (I know I should not allow myself to think he could help me but only God can help) sometimes I ask our Lord Jesus am I not worthy yet for Him to let me go to heaven to b with Him? I always envision myself resting my head on His bosom crying with joy n relief when I reach heaven cos I will b so grateful to Him to give me the final rest from all the pains and sorrows on this Earth. Im so thankful for His provisions and grace for me and my family here but to praise&worship and learn&work together again w my hubby is heavenly.

Oftentimes, no matter how much we prepare, death comes as a shock. your daughters may just not have fully accepted it yet, and aren't ready to mourn. I'd suggest sitting down and talking to them. Try to turn mourning into a celebration of everything he accomplished! sit down, and talk about the great things he did in life. Maybe he always squinted in pictures? Was there a joke he liked to tell at the dinner table? Try embracing all the memories instead of pushing them away. If you need space to recover first, take it. If you need someone to lean on, find them. If you need your daughters to mourn with you, talk to them, tell them how important it is to you for them to help.

As a Christian, we know we are never truly worthy, but the grace of God covers for every single one of our sins. You aren't unworthy, God just decided you aren't finished with your work here on earth. Try to think of things you've done or people you've helped. Keep going down that path! Make the most out of everything, find your calling! Don't just do it for yourself, do it for God, and your husband!! Just think of how happy your husband would be to see you carrying out the work of the Lord. Maybe you could continue on his legacy? What are Godly things he was known for? Or just in general? Maybe you always watched a TV show together. He might not physically be present, but you'll probably recall all the little comments he'd make and such. You don't have to push the thought and feeling of him out. He'll always be there, and so will the memories. It takes time, but someday I pray you'll be able to embrace them.

On a slightly different note, at the mention of a handyman, there are a few channels out there on youtube if you ever need help around the house. My personal favorite is the "Dad, how do I?" channel. It's a bit more basic in the terms of what he helps withm but it's incredibly sweet.

Last night as I was hvg dinner alone it just hit me hard and I couldnt finish the dinner but cried thinking of thr happy moments.... I was just thinking of my favourite dish and he would usually drive us there as it was quite out of the way fr our house but now I couldnt go wo him. Tears just flowed of how he would love to bring or drive me around even in our holidays he preferred to self drive. Do u think he is now learning and checking out heaven so he would show me around when I see him in heaven? I was listening to Randy Alcorn the other day and he said our relationship betwn husband&wife in heaven will be much improved than on earth. Often when the days were painful I focus on God n heaven to keep me going.

Yes! Remember how when Jesus died and went to heaven he said he was "making a place" for his disciples? I think your husband is doing the same. He's probably finding the coolest spots and smiling to himself thinking about how you'll react when he shows you the coolest places he can possibly find. When God brings you to him, all will be perfect.

Maybe start a journal, and write letters to him. He might not be able to respond, but I think he'd love having something written to him. Pour your heart out to him. He loved you in life, and that life has not ended, just changed. It is hard but in the end you'll make the change and move into heaven with him. But until it's your turn to move to heaven, you can write letters to him. Think of heaven as a new address, he's preparing for you when you get there. Keep fighting! God will keep you going! It's insanely hard, but with strength like yours and God's, nothing can beat you.

Yes! Remember how when Jesus died and went to heaven he said he was "making a place" for his disciples? I think your husband is doing the same. He's probably finding the coolest spots and smiling to himself thinking about how you'll react when he shows you the coolest places he can possibly find. When God brings you to him, all will be perfect.

Maybe start a journal, and write letters to him. He might not be able to respond, but I think he'd love having something written to him. Pour your heart out to him. He loved you in life, and that life has not ended, just changed. It is hard but in the end you'll make the change and move into heaven with him. But until it's your turn to move to heaven, you can write letters to him. Think of heaven as a new address, he's preparing for you when you get there. Keep fighting! God will keep you going! It's insanely hard, but with strength like yours and God's, nothing can beat you.

Thank you sushiseggrolls. Sorry the last few days were hard...