Midnight Confessions

Thanks Jerry. Means alot. Hope you are well.

Hope you're feeling better, Mel.

Thanks Zero how are you?

I'm ok. Kind of tired, but ok. Nice to see you are smiling.

I feel like I am a horrible person, I hate my neighbor’s dogs, they have too much and they wander all around the streets, pooping everywhere, they bark and howl all morning, afternoon and night time and the owners doesn’t even bother to care for them, It’s non-stop, and I feel like killing them and shooting all of them just to shut them up. I confess and admit that I am not an animal lover but I don’t “hate” animals but these dogs are impossible.

I also don’t have any tolerance for people who are “Ms & Mr know it all”, people who are pretentious and arrogant. I often roll my eyes In disbelief right in front of them.

I feel that the love that I have is very limited and no room for difficult people that are hard to love, I always pray to God to give me a new heart to accommodate them, as I know I am not perfect too who also sins but still God chose to love me and show me mercy, so I also long for that kind of love.

I used to be a chain smoker during college days, I often used up a pack or more a day until my body rejects it every time I try to smoke, that’s when I started to quit smoking, I really can not do it, so everyday I prayed and asked for the holy spirit to help me and he did. That was 15 years ago, but last year 2019 I started to occasionally smoke again and thankfully God made me realized how he helped me through the last time I did it, so I decided to stop it right away.

I used to drink during college days, now
My alcohol tolerance is very high, there was one time I came out to have drinks with friends, we all have the same amount of drinks and by the end of the night everyone was so drunk and I’m the only one who is not, most of them are men. They all had soup and coffee before we go home, and I was the only one laughing making fun of how all of them are so drunk.

When I travel, I usually go to the airport lounge to sit and wait for my flight but mostly to pour myself a drink of Jack Daniels and coke.

No, I am not an alcoholic.

I feel like I am a horrible person, I hate my neighbor’s dogs, they have too much and they wander all around the streets, pooping everywhere, they bark and howl all morning, afternoon and night time and the owners doesn’t even bother to care for them, It’s non-stop, and I feel like killing them and shooting all of them just to shut them up. I confess and admit that I am not an animal lover but I don’t “hate” animals but these dogs are impossible.

I also don’t have any tolerance for people who are “Ms & Mr know it all”, people who are pretentious and arrogant. I often roll my eyes In disbelief right in front of them.

I feel that the love that I have is very limited and no room for difficult people that are hard to love, I always pray to God to give me a new heart to accommodate them, as I know I am not perfect too who also sins but still God chose to love me and show me mercy, so I also long for that kind of love.

I used to be a chain smoker during college days, I often used up a pack or more a day until my body rejects it every time I try to smoke, that’s when I started to quit smoking, I really can not do it, so everyday I prayed and asked for the holy spirit to help me and he did. That was 15 years ago, but last year 2019 I started to occasionally smoke again and thankfully God made me realized how he helped me through the last time I did it, so I decided to stop it right away.

I used to drink during college days, now
My alcohol tolerance is very high, there was one time I came out to have drinks with friends, we all have the same amount of drinks and by the end of the night everyone was so drunk and I’m the only one who is not, most of them are men. They all had soup and coffee before we go home, and I was the only one laughing making fun of how all of them are so drunk.

When I travel, I usually go to the airport lounge to sit and wait for my flight but mostly to pour myself a drink of Jack Daniels and coke.

No, I am not an alcoholic.

I used to drink too in my younger days but gave it up for good in 1992. I was not an alcoholic either but decided I didn't want that in my life anymore. Sadly, I still am an addict, nicotine is my drug of choice. You are right that difficult people are hard to love but remember that God loves these people and with His help you can at least learn to tolerate them. That's where I'm at right now. I have to remember that I'm not any better than they are and perhaps, in their eyes, I am a difficult person too.

I don't think you're horrible! I like you. Now, if I were a dog I might feel differently, but I don't poop just 'everywhere'. I have my standards. As far as smoking goes, I mean you're sitting out in front of the Louvre and NOT smoking? I think you can get arrested for that.

My take on drinking is a little different. I know a lot of good intentioned Christians think drinking is sinful - any kind, but Jesus turned water into wine. Does that sound like a guy who thinks drinking is a sin?

My point is - I'm horrible too. I can be unbelievably lazy and angry and we share a taste for Jack Daniels (I live in Tennessee and it's the law) and and the only thing I can fault you with is COKE IN YOUR JACK DANIELS??

I'm glad you quit smoking. I watched a family member drown for days without end before it finally did. Don't wish that on you, Tourist or any one. God speed Mak33!

Thank you @tourist.
I needed that reality check, I probably been difficult myself to others too, it is always a two street. Thanks. I am occasional drinker, I don’t smoke anymore, it’s my personal conviction and my dealings with the Lord. I know it is A struggle but I hope one day you can also give it up in your own time, thanks for the reminder.

Good morning everyone Bob is flying out of Oklahoma to Seattle today, and the weather is not good. In fact, it is snowing here also. His original flight plan was for tomorrow, but I think the weather is supposed to only get worse; it was the airline that changed his plans. He is to bus from Seattle to Vancouver tomorrow. It may actually be a good thing that his trip will be over two days so he does not have to spend so much time all in one day cramped and cooped in a seat.

Please pray for a safe trip for him, and also that he is able to quickly find a place to stay once he arrives that is amenable to him and his needs, spiritually, financially and physically. Thank you!

Any prayers you could spare for us would also be appreciated This will be our first time meeting in person after 16 months of texting and about nine months of audio/visual communications through skype

I can remember how I felt before actually meeting my future wife Darlene for the first time so I know that you both must be very excited and perhaps a little anxious. I can certainly spare a prayer for the both of you in this next big important step in your relationship. This is exciting for me as well and pray for all of God's best for you and Bob.

I wonder if anybody else feels like they live in a drama where they go from one horrible boss to the next.

Or is this always the lot of the second born, to have someone lording it over you. I dont know, I suppose one has to accept it. Eve was created after Adam after all. Nothing she could do would ever change that.

But them theres the opposite phenomen when the man expects you to 'be the boss' and abidcates all the responisbilty but then you need to do everything on less then ten times the resources a man has. Just wondering how that even works?!

Confession, Im a woman or maybe Im not, maybe Im just a girl still. its a bit frightening really. People SAY theres equality but what I observe is in life things are really not equal at all.

Maybe its a trick or the whole bait and switch? who wants to marry and then have their entire life and body controlled by someone else, thats just sounds a bit daft to me.

I have had my share of horrible bosses too. I just did the very best that I could do until they either transfered, got fired or resigned. I agree that it would be best to not marry a controlling person. You're a woman and not a girl. I have found that for the most part things are equal in the workplace but apparently some are more equal than others. From my extensive work experience I have found that there is drama in most companies and departments. After awhile you learn who the players are and use the politics to your advantage. Usually I come out on top.

is it because you are a man that you come out on top.
In many workplaces it can still be intimidating for women cos we still have to deal with male sexual harassment on MOST jobs. You think times have changed and that men would be used to having a female doing a job..but no. I was so surprised that there are still chauvinistic attitudes.

But thankfully, in in my latest jobs I havent encountered that. I just had a few that were not nice.

dont work in retirment villages I would say and get harassed by creepy older men with way too much time on their hands...Im well out of it now but too much drama. Then theres those top dogs who think they can embezzle funds, and others who take their mistresses on junkets that the taxpayer is funding. Im like hello.

can we workers just fire you. Cos its obvious to everyone else but you what you are doing is unacceptable.