wishing for death

Thanks to everyone that so lovingly reached out - many sent private messages to be sure that I was okay and shared their testimonies and such with me. That was wonderful of you!

God has done a wonderful thing - a renewing and a healing beyond just the physical (But also the Physical!)

So thanks so much. I went running this morning and other things that haven't worked in forever are working again. And mostly I have been delivered from pain I've carried around since 4 years old so thanks for your prayers. And for the love <3

Thanks to everyone that so lovingly reached out - many sent private messages to be sure that I was okay and shared their testimonies and such with me. That was wonderful of you!

God has done a wonderful thing - a renewing and a healing beyond just the physical (But also the Physical!)

So thanks so much. I went running this morning and other things that haven't worked in forever are working again. And mostly I have been delivered from pain I've carried around since 4 years old so thanks for your prayers. And for the love <3

Hi Heart_Melody! You are not alone. A lot of people are caring about you. Don't know what is causing you such misery but it is real to make you feel this way. There are a lot of people that are suffering in this world and if you could see their pain you would try to help them and in helping them you will be helping yourself. When you can take the take the focus off yourself and try to help someone who needs your help you will find some satisfaction. Life may seem painful right now pray for something can do for others. Someone needs your help. If you are young and healthy then you are blessed and can be a blessing. You are a blessing by reaching out and letting us touch your life. You need someone to touch your life right now to let you know that God loves you and there are others out there willing to befriend and help you through this rough period of your life. At the the end of the dark tunnel there is light. Just think of what Jesus went through in his life on earth. He never gave up but kept on going even when some people hated him, he said, "Father forgive them because they don't know what they are doing." It was love that carried him through. Try loving yourself for the person you really are deep inside and find the love of God in your heart. You need to hear, "Love you Melody." "In my heart there rings a Melody, a Melody of love."

Ik life is hard sometimes but never wish for death god has a plan for you and yoi will suceed at it . I will pray for you

I appreciate you reaching out. Even though it would be too long and I have no desire to list all the details.
I am not talking of a sick day. But 32 years of sickness. And yet I've fought every day to go on and to help people.
Abuse and neglect from an early time in my life making it impossible for me to trust or receive love or lasting relationships which leaves me absolutely destitute and alone.

So excuse me - but this kind of "preaching" is the kind people exactly don't need when they are the most broken they've ever been. You have no idea the sacrifices some of us make. The life we have been given to bear. How it feels when you can't even get yourself to trust Jesus Loves you when your shame is so heavy that all you can think about is what a failure you are and nothing will ever amount to anything.

I hope to God you won't ever have to walk through hell on earth because I would hate for that little formula of yours not to work out

Still I am blessed that God reached down and helped me, because it wasn't about "what I needed to do". It was about what God had already done.

be blessed

Thanks to everyone that so lovingly reached out - many sent private messages to be sure that I was okay and shared their testimonies and such with me. That was wonderful of you!

God has done a wonderful thing - a renewing and a healing beyond just the physical (But also the Physical!)

So thanks so much. I went running this morning and other things that haven't worked in forever are working again. And mostly I have been delivered from pain I've carried around since 4 years old so thanks for your prayers. And for the love <3

do others ever wish for death?
I can't think of anything else. I just wish God would end my misery. I wish he hadn't made me. I hate every minute I have to keep going and i am sick and tired of having to pretend that God has some purpose for me.

I wish some person who died of this stupid virus could have their life back in exchange for mine. I just don't want to go on.

Has something traumatic happened in your life that made you feel this way? I used to be in a very emotionally abusive relationship where my husband would make me feel worthless everyday and tell me how much no one cared about me. I remember feeling this way where I would cry every night and feel like life would be better without me. I think the first thing that you must know is that God truly cares for you. He loves you and theres no one else in the world who can love you more. If you are in a bad situation try to surround yourself with people who love you like family and friends, spend time with them. Third if it is possible try to volunteer somewhere. You don't know what an impact you can have on peoples lives. The world needs you.

Life is mostly suffering in some form or another. Some are fortunate enough to suffer less than others but rest assured that God will make fair judgment at the end of it all. Stay strong

True - I suppose...
Thanks for the encouragement - 8ve been despaired before but never quite to that degree before.

But the darker the night 5he brighter the day... Yes?

No matter how crappy life gets one thing that keeps me going is knowing that everything in this temporary world does not even begin to compare to the glory that awaits us in eternity. Please don't throw it away, we must endure to the end.

Hes got you in the palm of his hands and will not let you go..Satan cant snatch you away this time.