I teach in my church and mentored by a pastor. I feel more led to prepare my kids so that they can go out from me and have 3x the impact as I alone could. Invest in a little over 15 years and our children could be our best evangelism methods. But obviously I spend time helping in other areas at church or other activities like using my social media outlets to also teach and share the Gospel.
Were you predetermined to write this or chose to?
This has been theologically debated for centuries. This really falls into the concept of free will. In my thread called The Absence of Free Will, you can find my defense of free will and of course the discussion between those who believe in absolute predeterminism.
https://christianchat.com/bible-discussion-forum/the-absence-of-free-will.187333/
Feeling are emotional and will not always be stable. You know because God tells us we are if our faith is in Jesus Christ for our salvation. God's promises have came true throughout centuries. Prophecy has never not been accurate in scripture.
Romans 11:6
6 But if it is by grace, it is no longer on the basis of works; otherwise grace would no longer be grace.
It is something we do not deserve and could not earn. The Apostles suffered greatly for this promise and Paul even once claimed to be so bad under persecution that he had wished for death. Feelings doesn't secure or negate God's promises. Have faith in that and secure that in your mind so when trials come, you will not stumble.
If you love God, put your faith in Jesus, accepted him as Christ or Lord over your life, and remain faithful to the end then you will never have to doubt salvation. Jesus said he was the vine and we are the branches. Remain in him and you will live. To be cut off, you will die.
This is the theological debate between predestination and again free will.
John 3:16
16 “For God so loved the world,that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.
Either God gave a choice for whoever would believe or John is lying in this verse. Of course, this comes from the doctrine of Calvinism or Arminianism. Most Christians fall somewhere in between them both.
You will have.
Arminianism------------moderate------------middle------------moderate-----------Calvinism
If I was to choose I am more middle to moderate Arminian. Close to George Whitfield and John Wesley. Not by choice but after reading the Bible first I found out my beliefs aligned more into that area. At that time I had no idea who or what Arminian, Calvin, Whitfield, Wesley, etc were and taught. Either side you fall on will not affect salvation. It will just affect how you see scripture.
To me evil is best explained by free will or else God would be the author of evil too.