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For as long as I can remember, I have struggled with feeling "good" about myself.
Back in 1999, my electronics teacher, took me to the side, and said to me: "You have got the worse inferiority complex, I've ever seen." Then He told me that I know a lot and should start feeling good about myself. But for some reason it feels like there is something broken inside of me that won't allow me to emotionally balance. If I start to feel good about myself, then I'm afraid that I will be too prideful. And if I'm too far down, then i start feeling depressed and like I'm falling apart.
To make things worse, when I write blogs about how I feel about things, sometimes I get people saying that I'm sinning because I'm writing about negative things, or whatever... I try to be in the word of God a lot, and I don't glean that out of it. I do glean that a Christian is to be honest.
When I put myself down, I really am seeing things that way. I could try to explain why... But I would just be trying... I don't know how to explain it. How to take these emotions and turn it into something logical that I can write out for you. In other posts, I've talked openly about having been diagnosed with a learning disability and some people on this site choose to say it isn't so.
I really don't care what your opinion is about that. All I'm going to say is, I feel like I have a problem. And I would like some prayer about it. Even if there is nothing wrong with me. What does it hurt to pray that way? You can pray anyway you like...
Back in 1999, my electronics teacher, took me to the side, and said to me: "You have got the worse inferiority complex, I've ever seen." Then He told me that I know a lot and should start feeling good about myself. But for some reason it feels like there is something broken inside of me that won't allow me to emotionally balance. If I start to feel good about myself, then I'm afraid that I will be too prideful. And if I'm too far down, then i start feeling depressed and like I'm falling apart.
To make things worse, when I write blogs about how I feel about things, sometimes I get people saying that I'm sinning because I'm writing about negative things, or whatever... I try to be in the word of God a lot, and I don't glean that out of it. I do glean that a Christian is to be honest.
When I put myself down, I really am seeing things that way. I could try to explain why... But I would just be trying... I don't know how to explain it. How to take these emotions and turn it into something logical that I can write out for you. In other posts, I've talked openly about having been diagnosed with a learning disability and some people on this site choose to say it isn't so.
I really don't care what your opinion is about that. All I'm going to say is, I feel like I have a problem. And I would like some prayer about it. Even if there is nothing wrong with me. What does it hurt to pray that way? You can pray anyway you like...
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