Just not happy at all

Only God can bring you to this faith ImTastik. I know myself many times that I thought I had faith, but I know now that I didn't.

Here is a good book you can read online for free:

EVER INCREASING FAITH by Smith Wigglesworth

http://www.worldinvisible.com/library/wigglesworth/5f00.0930/5f00.0930.c.htm

I am reading this book again for like the 3rd time, it's amazing!!! Check it out:

He took me to her house, and there was a woman lying in a bed on the right hand side of the room. I said to her, "Well, what about it now?" She said, "They have sent me home incurable. The doctors say that I am so old that my bones won't knit. There is no nutriment in my bones and they could never do anything for me, and they say I shall have to lie in bed for the rest of my life." I said to her, "Can you believe God?" She replied, "Yes, ever since I heard that you had come to Belfast my faith has been quickened. If you will pray, I will believe. I know there is no power on earth that can make the bones of my thigh knit, but I know there is nothing impossible with God." I said, "Do you believe He will meet you now?" She answered, "I do."

It is grand to see people believe God. God knew all about this leg and that it was broken in two places. I said to the woman, "When I pray, something will happen." Her husband was sitting there; he had been in his chair for four years and could not walk a step. He called out, "I don't believe. I won't believe. You will never get me to believe." I said, "All right," and laid my hands on his wife in the name of the Lord Jesus. The moment hands were laid upon her the power of God went right through her and she cried out, "I'm healed." I said, "I'm not going to assist you to rise. God will do it all." She rose and walked up and down the room, praising God.

The old man was amazed at what had happened to his wife, and he cried out, "Make me walk, make me walk." I said to him, "You old sinner, repent." He cried out, "Lord, You know I never meant what I said. You know I believe." I don't think he meant what he said; anyhow the Lord was full of compassion. If He marked our sins, where would any of us be? If we will meet the conditions, God will always meet us. If we believe, all things are possible. I laid my hands on him and the power went right through the old man's body; and those legs, for the first time in four years, received power to carry his body, and he walked up and down and in and out. He said, "O what great things God has done for us tonight!"

"What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them." Desire toward God, and you will have desires from God; and He will meet you on the line of those desires when you reach out in simple faith. - Smith Wigglesworth

Quest

I did pray to God last night and ask Him to help me

Proper irritated now though! I walked to Church this morning even though my foots still quite sore, I did this so I could avoid Philippa and josh...long story short but i have a friend who is supposedly best friends with josh one minute then the next josh is ignoring him but then theyre best friends again. It was so spiteful of josh this morning to go over to my friends knowing i wouldnt go over if he were there! He only talks to them when he wants to! And yet....they still haven't learnt....he's come back again this afternoon....why? Why the heck would you spend all your time with someone when you've just had an argument?! i dont flippin get it! he REALLY irritates me! Plus the fact he's 20 on friday....my sister's only just gone 16....they're in her room and i can't hear a word.....what if he's doing something to her?! and no....not being paranoid...just they sit there in the middle of church kissing each other....don't get me started on them kissing in public or even in the living room which is on the main road in town.....dont wanna see it!!!

Immy,

You're a great sister!!! I wish I had someone who was concerned about me like you are about her. But I do think she is ultimatly responsible herself for her actions. Pray for her, like Job did for his children. Prayer is the most powerful weapon we've got.

God bless you!

thing is i am about her, but i dont get any concern in return.....she dunt care about me at all

Thats wats makes you cool. You are giving, without getting something back! Keep on giving and caring about her! Thats whats makes you special!

one day she'll know it

I've totally been where your at! Sometimes girls can be so mean, one minute they talk to you the next they dont. I will never understand that.
concerning the weight issue, my parents used to tell me i was fat all the time so i know how hurtful that can be, i would lose weight then be so miserable because i hadnt eaten and gain it all right back. bottom line, you cant please everyone, so what your uncle doesnt like how much you weigh. Its not his body, its yours, and ive seen your pictures, you look awesome, and your so so pretty! Im gonna be praying for you, but please, dont starve yourself, thats a dead end!

when i've got a six pack and i'm the skinniest girl at college i'll go "IN YOUR FAAAAACE uncle baz!!"

It seems to me that your relationships and appearance are conditions on your feelings of self-worth. A person should not require accomplishments or someone's approval to feel worthy. I don't know how the advice is biblical but it helped me to stop crying at night. This advice came from a cognitive/behavioral psychologist. He suggested I learn about my unconditional self worth and a book to help, The Self-Esteem Workbook by Glenn R. Schiraldi. This site I found by searching "cognitive distortions" might help briefly,
http://depression.about.com/cs/psychotherapy/a/cognitive.htm
I know it is not fair that you did not learn this stuff from your earthly father. It may feel weird at first to say this but try to respond to harsh words like this, "even though you may hurt my feelings, I still love you" This reminds the person that you have feelings and that you love.
When you pray, it is good to end with, "~~~nevertheless, your will be done." It may help to read the book of Job and see how he dealt with his problems and why he had them.

I'm not depressed, I'm just going through some absolute rubbish at the moment and sometimes it just gets too much.
This thing with my sister her and her ridiculous boyfriend is just stupid though! He really does try and wind me up, i'm pretty sure it's intentional after today...well yesterday now seeing as its like 20 past 1 haha. To cut a long story short he had another car crash the other day and hes getting a new car....clearly not paying attention on the roads seeing as this is about his third one since he passed his test last year! Anyway.....all weekend him and my sister have been going to look at cars...for one thing...why does my sister need to go? its nothing to do with her! She ended up going today and it were my mum's birthday so that annoyed me for a start that he'd had the cheek to ask her that! Then later he comes trolling around to supposedly give my mum her card and present...more like to see my sister AGAIN! This is what really hacks me off! They tell me they hardly ever see each other when I'm not here yet when I'm here he's here all the time! I'm not kidding! All evening Friday, all day saturday, all day yesterday and some of today! And theyre trying to tell me they never see each other? they need a reality check lol! Anyway back to what happened....I didn't go downstairs cos I dint wanna see him cos I don't like him and i dont wanna speak to him. But i knew he'd sucked upto my mum and bought her a present and a card....I went downstairs and read it and i am 99% sure he did this to wind me up...he put "thank you for everything you've done and for having me when ever i want" he knows fully well that i don't want him around like he is...so I am way too sure that he did that to wind me up!

Some of you might be thinking 'are you jealous of your sister going out with him?' I just wanna make it clear that I have never liked him like that and I never will! I just don't know what my sister sees in him! He's always swearing at her when they're arguing! He's not exactly the nicest person at all. He's a suck up! And from what I can tell he went out with a girl before he went out with my sister to get back at her for going out with someone. I also don't agree with the age gap!

wow that's alot to take in I'll keep you in my prayers for sure(((((((((hugs))))))))) and about your friends don't even worry about them try to make new friends if you don't feel like they are treating you right I know i had to do that to some of mine......but look at me now I COULDN'T BE MORE HAPPIER so keep praying God will answer your prayers soon but yea I'll keep you in my prayers and I'll be a friend if you need 1.......

I agree, she looks very petite to me. I wish I was that thin.

Quest

It looks like its back to square one with friends!!
WHAT CAN I DO TO GET SOME FRIENDS?! i feel like a complete and utter loser!!

Im so sorry your having a hard time of it. It seems for young women today any friendship is a challange.
I just wanted to let you know your still in my prayers.
Keep believing!
God bless, pickles