Every night I have nightmares of what could have been of my life. What should have been. I have dreams of me reliving my sinful past. I want it to stop. Even though I hate what I dream about, the mornings are so depressing for me that I stay in bed till 2 pm. I usually go to bed around 12:30-2 am so I’m getting almost 12 hours of sleep. I need to stop this awful lifestyle I know, but I am so ashamed of the life I lived. At night I feel better, but then the mornings are rough and I never want to get up. I just want to sleep forever. I want to die in the morning.