Hi Taylormaid, nice to meet you!!
Just curious, you joined On April of 16, but you are just now making a post? I just wondered why?
As for the nobody likes you comment, you have to learn to like yourself first. Why do you feel you are unlikeable?
The feeling of wanting to die, is a dead end solution, that profits nobody but the undertaker!!
Learning to live is what you should be concentrating on!!
Do you have family? Surely they love you? And I feel like you have friends, but maybe you do not appreciate them?
Hope deferred makes the heart grow sick, you need to rekindle your hope.
The bible is the best book to find hope in, and the best place in the world to be able to get rid of the condemnation for past mistakes and foolishness.
It will give you a brand new start, fresh every day.
Do you pray before reading it? Asking God to speak to you thru the pages of His word? He can and He will, but you have to desire it.
Maybe you are depressed? If so medication can help with that, along with therapy, and there is also online Christian therapy. This site very well may be the answers to your problems.
Have you read the scripture that says he casts our sins in the sea of his forgetfulness, as far as the east is from the west?
That is an awesome word, that I find very comforting indeed. If He does that for us, should we not much more forgive ourselves?
I hope that maybe you were just having an off day when you posted and that things are looking up now?
Have you tried one of the dating sites? EHarmony and Christian Mingle are supposed to be two good ones, maybe the love of your life is waiting for you there?