Being a woman seems to mean an endless change of jobs. I went from medical social worker to mom. I had to learn to become a volunteer speech therapist, short order cook and economist. As my son got older I flexed into the art work and created jewelry, rugs and pine needle baskets. As my son got older I was downsized from my 18 year marriage. Suddenly I needed to sell my home and found a small place with a decor and condition reminiscent of early modern Beirut. I learned to become my own contractor, handyman, furniture restoration expert and hard core budgeter. I took in homestay students and became a full time cook, cleaner and mom to many more. To expand the budget I started writing for social media and becoming a background extra for TV and movies. Shortly after that I ended up with my first movie role. I was now taking acting classes, writing monologues and even doing stand up comedy (once). What am I doing now? Most of the above and reselling.
This is a really long winded way of saying that life is constantly in motion and we need to adapt and change. It is normal. Changing careers, jobs or locations allows us to stretch and grow. Even the bad experiences add layers of richness to who you are and what you have to offer. Sometimes it is a case of "God comforting us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others in their troubles" (paraphrase), and sometimes we find new possibilities.
I am a bit of an introvert so I'd have loved a life with a gentleman who values home life, humour and being part of our local church. I find that with God when we timidly tell him we are willing to put a toe out out front door he pushes us outside in our underwear. As my life changes I will have to revision myself yet again, so yes I am again at a crossroads.
In my life I could have never imagined I'd find myself in my current life but I find comfort that many of the Old Testament characters felt the same.
The other day I read this "My life didn't turn out the way I planned. And that is OK". Yes. This.
Go with the adventure. No promises as to how it will turn out but it is your journey. Best of luck.