You may feel free to express yourself anytime that you feel the need. God is indeed there with you and all around. I know that you are enjoying your new bungalow but are still grieving for your late husband. It is hard to see the one that you love die by degrees each day and cry out in suffering and pain. That is a sad and lonely place to be. I have been to such a place too as I watched my late wife die. She would cry out in pain but all I could do is to hold her, tell her that I love her and that God loves her too. I'm sure that you comforted Rod this way too. We both have suffered terrible losses. Jesus said that He would neither leave us or forsake us. They are gone but not forgotten. We will see them again and those others that have left before us. Special prayers will be said for you my friend. I may not meet you in this life but certainly in the next. There will be no more tears and suffering there. I find that to be a comforting thought and I pray the same is true for you as well.