Disclaimer: What you are about to read is kinda embarrassing to me in a way. So just be warned. I desperately need prayer though, so I'm gonna be honest. Here goes:
Pray for my boyfriend and me. Julliana, I know you are familiar of my story with him, since you have commented on my thread about him. Today, I had a discouraging talk with him. He has not been baptized yet and he told me that it was because he struggled with lust and felt it would be wrong of him to be baptized when he hadn't been able to give that part of his life over to the Lord. (yeah, I know and I'm dating him.)
Well, we were talking about different churches to try out and he mentioned a Church of Christ church that he wanted to visit. No offense to anyone who is Church of Christ, but I told him of my reservations because some of their doctrines I really disagree with. I said, "Well, I don't know if some of their doctrine is inline with what I believe is scriptural. For instance, from my understanding, they believe baptism is part of the process of salvation. They believe baptism is necessary for salvation to occur and I just don't think they have a true understanding of God's plan of salvation."
He says to me, "Well, I think they may be right." So that led me to addressing, "You're not baptized. Does that mean you believe you would go to Hell if you were to die right now?"
He says, "It's not looking so good for me."
So now I really don't know that he is even a Christian, at this point. Number one, I am concerned for him because I care about his soul. Number two: I hate to say it, but I feel really bad and embarrassed that someone I have been dating for 9 months is in this place, spiritually.
Let me add that he did go on to tell me, "At this point, I feel ready to be baptized, but I just need to find a church home where I can get baptized." Later on, he was like, "You still love me? You still wanna marry me?"
This spot where we are in our relationship is just really difficult for me. I feel like I've gotten myself into a conundrum big time and I really need the Lord to guide me on how to respond, like never before. So yeah, pray for that.