Lomg and weary has been the path that we have suffered. A raod of darkness and trial,of hardship and pain. How my soul thirsts for strength and my heart xeies in it's weakness, the enemy sneers in my suffering and laughs at my embers of hope. How he boasts in the close victory of my breaking. For in this long dark path that I have traveled indeed I have been beaten and bruised unlike any time before I have been as a flower withering from thirst barely able to stand on my roots. For to long my heart says how much longer? For to long I have wondered when is there rest? for many nights and days I have traveled in the dark and hardships unable to see any light at the end stumbling over the ytipping stones of the enemy nearing the point of utter exhaustion and defeat.
For never before have I walkedwalked through the valley of death in this degree and never before has my faith and trust in the king been tried by such fire, and never before has your presence eluded me so deeply and for so long. Truly to be in hell is to be without you, to be parted with your presence crying out in the endless night for your arms to embrace your child once again. The pain in my soul runs deep, my rememberence of the precious times we would enjoy being together relishing how our hearts would pour our intimate affection and love for each other with such warmth and purity brings my soul a deep ache cutting deeper than any sword could. The tears do not hesitate to run down my cheeks and I maon in pain for my longing of you.
And yet my beloved I will trust you and I shall continue to move forwards with only my blindess and utter faith in you. I shall travers through the fires and suffer this pain for as long as it takes.. Please oh Lord do not think your child has lost faith for it is not you that I doubt but me. Even in this ocean of suffering and trial and even as long and utterly weary it has been when i search my heart oh father all I see is you, I cannot find an ounce of doubt or mistrust. Through the gates of hell itself will I travel to find you have you as my own, to hold you and adore you as I have never before. To obtain the depth of love and intimacy that I have craved ever since our hearts first spoke and poured our feelings for each other on that fateful day when we first met.
For never before have I walkedwalked through the valley of death in this degree and never before has my faith and trust in the king been tried by such fire, and never before has your presence eluded me so deeply and for so long. Truly to be in hell is to be without you, to be parted with your presence crying out in the endless night for your arms to embrace your child once again. The pain in my soul runs deep, my rememberence of the precious times we would enjoy being together relishing how our hearts would pour our intimate affection and love for each other with such warmth and purity brings my soul a deep ache cutting deeper than any sword could. The tears do not hesitate to run down my cheeks and I maon in pain for my longing of you.
And yet my beloved I will trust you and I shall continue to move forwards with only my blindess and utter faith in you. I shall travers through the fires and suffer this pain for as long as it takes.. Please oh Lord do not think your child has lost faith for it is not you that I doubt but me. Even in this ocean of suffering and trial and even as long and utterly weary it has been when i search my heart oh father all I see is you, I cannot find an ounce of doubt or mistrust. Through the gates of hell itself will I travel to find you have you as my own, to hold you and adore you as I have never before. To obtain the depth of love and intimacy that I have craved ever since our hearts first spoke and poured our feelings for each other on that fateful day when we first met.
