I've been having some job troubles the past few months. Mostly because I haven't been able to even apply for a "normal" job of sorts because of my dad's current cancer diagnosis and my becoming his main caregiver during the week while my mom works.
I'm an artist by trade, a classically trained painter. I can't help but think that that was maybe a bad idea to not take any graphic design courses, which is what most freelance or work at home people do nowadays, but I digress.
I wanted, long ago in high school, to not try any freelance things because I wanted to instead focus my attentions at trying to land a "real job" but do my art stuff on the side. Now with my current circumstance, I can't actually have a real set schedule because my father could need something at any time during the day. I need something where I can work on it, put it aside, keep working on it, ect ect. Irony of ironies.
I keep looking online for freelance opportunities, but with such a huge pool of others that are not only better and/or have cheaper rates than I do it can be very difficult. Even trying to do little commissions on like tumblr and twitter hasn't turned anything up yet. I'm doing my own little slice of life comic and a few youtube videos every so often so that helps, but it's.....it takes a long time.... And a big thing, I don't want to be "famous," I just want to earn a living.
My first reaction is to be cynical: "I could have done _________ and I was stupid and didn't do that now I'm paying for it wow I'm a failure" and so forth. But I know the attitude to have is gratitude to help my mother take care of my father. Gratitude that I can live at their house and eat their food. Also amazing gratitude that my tax refund came in so that I could make a trip to see Blain, as well as have 50 in my pocket.
God has done so many great things.... I just don't know how He wants me to survive. I know in Him I can. I just have no idea.
I'm an artist by trade, a classically trained painter. I can't help but think that that was maybe a bad idea to not take any graphic design courses, which is what most freelance or work at home people do nowadays, but I digress.
I wanted, long ago in high school, to not try any freelance things because I wanted to instead focus my attentions at trying to land a "real job" but do my art stuff on the side. Now with my current circumstance, I can't actually have a real set schedule because my father could need something at any time during the day. I need something where I can work on it, put it aside, keep working on it, ect ect. Irony of ironies.
I keep looking online for freelance opportunities, but with such a huge pool of others that are not only better and/or have cheaper rates than I do it can be very difficult. Even trying to do little commissions on like tumblr and twitter hasn't turned anything up yet. I'm doing my own little slice of life comic and a few youtube videos every so often so that helps, but it's.....it takes a long time.... And a big thing, I don't want to be "famous," I just want to earn a living.
My first reaction is to be cynical: "I could have done _________ and I was stupid and didn't do that now I'm paying for it wow I'm a failure" and so forth. But I know the attitude to have is gratitude to help my mother take care of my father. Gratitude that I can live at their house and eat their food. Also amazing gratitude that my tax refund came in so that I could make a trip to see Blain, as well as have 50 in my pocket.
God has done so many great things.... I just don't know how He wants me to survive. I know in Him I can. I just have no idea.